Look for the light. || Carl grimes

Chapter 8:struggling.

I woke up late night everyone asleep I got up and I looked outside my room a note on a box of noodles "heat them up if you want I wanted to let you sleep love Maggie" I smiled at the words Maggie was almost like a mom to me better then my real mom and my step mom it was nice Glenn was like a dad to me also just a way better one even tho my dad was good Glenn was amazing I heated up the noodles quietly or atleast tried to be quiet I sat at the table eating the noodles

A few hours pasted and I laid in my room it was morning time me and Maggie got into a argument over something stupid even tho I knew the whole agruement was stupid it still made me feel like I wasn't worth it worth of living I mean every since my mother became a alcoholic and my stepmom came in my life I felt like I didn't need to live I was struggling some days I seem happy but one minor inconvenience I think I'm a horrible person Glenn tried to get me to talk to him or maggie I wouldent dare speak so he brought Carl in Carl came in my room .

(Carls pov)

I got called over by Glenn he told me everything that happened I felt horrible for Sydney I walked into the Sydney's room and sat down before speaking "syd? Are you okay." She turned over to me tears running down her face and her nose all red from crying I felt horrible once again she started I guess venting to me telling me All about her problems I gave her a hug at the end of it I just listened to her not tell her about my problems or what's going on in my life just listened she fell asleep after I guess from all the crying I walked out the room telling Maggie it was best to walk in and tell her sorry

(Maggie's pov)

I heard everything being said and I. Felt so bad Carl walked out telling me it was best to say sorry so I walked in the room and she sat up I walked over slowly and sat down on the bed apologizing and giving her a hug "it's fine Maggie." She said to me I still felt horrible for the things I said to her and the agrument "I'll let you sleep" I said as I walked  out the room.

(Sydney's pov)

I woke up a few hours later I got ready put shoes on grabbed a gun and a knife and went out the door I went straight to the gates they opened and Carl ran up "hey where you going?" He asked "I'm going on a run Salem needs more food watch her for me" I said walking away "it's not smart to go out alone he said trying to get to me" "I'm fine I'll be back in a while" I said he stopped in his tracks and called Salem and I walked out

2 hours went by or atleast I thought so I went on a run a few days ago and I got more meat even tho I feed her 2 or 3 times a day we run out I decided to bring a bigger bag today I came across a hog,a deer,and a squirrel I skinned them and put some meat in a bag for her and some meat in a bag for others I shot the hog and stabbed the deer and squirrel I walked back

An hour passed the sun setting I smelled smoke fire smoke I walked up and placed the bags down at the house and I walked over and sat next to Carl as Salem licked my face before laying under my legs "what's going on?" I asked Carl "telling back stories and horror stories" Carl replied "we thought something happened to you after one gun shot." Carl said as I let out a little giggle at his words rick finished his and looked at me "Sydney tell us your back story?" "Uh sure??" I said and I started to speak "well Um I had a good family father was a successful business man wealthy had a good home for us my mother was a stay at home mom one day my dad got home and him and my mom started agruing it was a bad one I didn't care much and then after that my mother became a alcoholic beer bottles almost everywhere everyday the house not cleaned I'd be the only one who cleaned the house I washed the dishes everything even cooked dinner some days after some what maybe a month my father divorced my mother leaving my mother with a bit of cash she brought a house I would see her on weekends my father would work mondays thru Wednesdays and then married someone else my stepmother was very rude almost verbally abusive one day Saturday morning I woke up no news no nothing I went to my moms house beer bottles everywhere house dirty trash everywhere mold some places and some food left in the fridge almost none I sat down as news came on my mother passed out on the couch and some glass also broken in places I heard about the walkers and immediately woke my mom up she woke up to be a Walker I guess she overdosed or drank so much till the point she died I screamed as she grabbed my hair I got out of her grip and grabbed broken glass and stabbed her in places and then I stabbed her in the head realizing that's what I had to do to kill walkers I put a gun a knife some food and anything I needed in my bag and headed out the door all at 12 I had also struggled with mental issues and mental health issues ." I said followed with a sigh

Everyone looked in shock at how well I remembered it but it all felt like yesterday to me everyone else said thete story's and at the end we all ate some food michonne cooked for us I smiled and thanked her for the amazing meal and headed to my room in my house and went straight to sleep Salem sleeping in the deer skin I got her almost weeks ago.

Sorry for the sad chapter LMFAOOO but we needed some drama🙏🙏