Ghost

Of all the Fishes in the Sea

Hanni's POV

"How could she have feelings for me?.....I---I rejected her but how come it hurts?... I asked myself

Chan: Hey, are you okay? Looks like you're in deep thought.

Hanni: Sorry, it's just.. I don't know exactly what to say

Chan: Why? What happened with your talk with Minji?

I'm hesitating if I should share with Chan what happened earlier. His hands intertwined with mine and I don't know, something's off. His hands feel different from my previous encounter with him.

Hanni: Uhmm..she..(I hesitated) she confessed...

Chan: Confessed what? Wait? Is she inlove with you? Hahahahahaha

Hanni: Hey! What's funny?

We stopped walking and I faced him slightly angry on how he reacted.

Chan: Pardon me Hanni. But I know you.. I mean, I know from your profile and you're straight as a ruler.. Did she really think she would have a chance with you? I thought you two were best friends, she should've known better though.

Hanni: known what?

Chan: That she doesn't have a chance with you, not even the slightest.

I wanted to say something but it seems like my brain couldn't give a decent answer.

I know to myself that I'm straight, but why am I feeling like this. I feel strange. It's like hurting and rejecting her feels like a half of me died.

Is it harsh to think that she really doesn't have a chance being with me. Maybe she misunderstood all the gestures I've done to her, being clingy, sweet. Gosh what have I done. This is going to be awkward.

Chan: You're thinking too much because you pity her.

Hanni: I pity her?

Chan: Yea, maybe. Because you rejected her that why you feel that way. It hurts because she's your best friend and you can't like her the way she likes you cause you're straight.

Hanni: Do you think I did the right thing?

Chan: Yes. If you didn't, then you're not right here with me holding my hand. (He smiled)

I smiled a little of what he said but I can't agree on him regarding what I feel. I know it's not pity, or guilt I'm feeling.

Going back to Minji's face whe she said she likes me, loves me rather, a part of me sparked but still ghost is on my head.

Out of all that happened today, I would be at 80% chance of feeling awkward to her. It's different now, knowing her acts would portray another. I really don't want to hurt you Min... But my heart beats for ghost.

Hanni: I guess so. Let's go

He held my hand tighter and we walk towards our friends. And it looks like something is going on there. Chan noticed the commotion and made sure I was behind him.

As my eyes tried to see what's happening, finally having a glimpse, I shook my head in disbelief.

Hanni:  What is he doing here?

Chan: you know him?

Hanni: Yeah, Jake Sim.

And just with that, I don't know, seems like he has a loud hearing or he has good timing. He quickly approached me holding a bouquet of red roses.

Jake: Hanni

Chan step aside and allowed Jake to talk to me.

Hanni: What are you doing here?