Superhuman // Liam

Beginning(7)

Breathe.

Breathe, just breathe.

That's all the voice in my head was saying, but maybe it was heaven even though I don't deserve to be there.

Raven, please.

That wasn't the voice in my head, because I'm pretty sure I'm not a guy.

I didn't move though, I didn't want to make any movement because I needed to get some things straight here. Was I dead, did all the supposed gods finally give up on me? Did someone grant me my eternal peace, because I'm not sure how I feel right now.

"Her heart rate when up. Excuse me Mr.Payne."  Payne... Liam. I can't be heaven now. For some reason, I felt almost happy about that. My reckless act of trying to kill myself hadn't worked, the gods still had some favor in me. All those years I spent wasting around my house, tear-filled eyes and take out, I could have spent becoming a better person.

"Sorry." There was his voice, his calming, caring, and now almost sad voice said. I needed answers, how was I still alive, how is that even possible?

"Her heart rate suggests she's awake,"  Clearly that voice was a nurse, who else would say that type of thing. I was alive, I was in a hospital. How.

"Raven? Please answer me.. please." There was Liam's voice, and I knew he wanted to see me awake. Why, when he was just being kind yesterday, would he be here?

My eyes opened, and they weren't kidding when they said  that hospital lights burn your eyes. I squinted, my head suddenly hurting a lot. The first thing my eyes landed on were Liam, himself with his calming brown eyes. His sad expression turned into a bright smile, but then changed again into disappointment.

"Don't ever... ever do that again." He whispered, squeezing his eyes shut as he leaned closer. He knew I had tried to kill myself, he knew. I inhaled slowly, looking down in guilt.

"I'm sorry." I sputtered out, fiddling with my fingers. I probably looked like shit. That doesn't really matter to me, now. Liam slowly looked up, and to my shock his eyes were full of tears.

"I'm serious. Raven, you nearly killed yourself. If I didn't come to your house to ask if you wanted to hang out, you wouldn't be alive." He looked to the ground, clenching his jaw. This reminded me that he had been acting weird, that all of those things he said. That he knew something, that I had to find it out? My brain hurt from thinking too much, and I just sighed back into the uncomfortable pillows.

"You don't know what I've been through, and yeah I admit it was stupid but I hate my life." I muttered, but at the same I was serious about what I said. He looked taken aback from my words, shaking his head as he got up, looking at me with serious written all over his face.

"That guy's in jail! I'm sorry you were one on the street, I'm sorry about everything," He turned away from me, his hands on the back of his neck.

"How do- How do you know about that?" I choked out, breathing heavily. I don't remember telling him about that, not in the meadow or in the ice cream shop. He sighed deeply, his eyes concentrated onto squeezing shut. He looked deep in thought, but I needed to know how we knew about all of that.

Liam came over, sitting back down in the blue chair and his eyes slowly making their way to mine.

"I was walking. Actually, my girlfriend had just dumped me. And I felt... pretty pathetic. I just needed to blow some steam off, walk around and get my heart over it. I didn't even know what street I was on, but I heard someone..." He let the sentence hang in the air for a second, looking at me with worry vivid in his eyes. "Screaming. Sobs, it was a girl. Being myself, I turned in that direction and was horrified to see, her. She was on the ground, a guy who's face I couldn't see was practically killing her with every punch and kick."

I clenched the sheets around me, and I was nearly shaking to the bone.

"I ran over, not even thinking twice about it. Pushed the guy up to the wall, I wouldn't let him hurt her, it had happened to my sister and she didn't make it. I looked to the man, if you even call him that with pure disgust and I couldn't help the punches I made to him. He fell to the ground, and I remember breathing heavily and looking over to her. She was obviously a beautiful girl, but the punches and bruises already making their way across her were evident. She had long, dark hair and pale skin. I wish I had seen her eyes, they would have been pretty."

I felt like every vein in my body had been cut short, like I wasn't getting enough air. Like every one's eyes were on you and your breath was everything but helpful. I felt like my body had no nerves, and pure shock had hit it.

He.. was my superhero?

My eyes squeezed shut, my breath ragged as I blinked furiously. He looked at me, his hands intertwined with themselves. All of those moments in life that I had waited and fought, asked all of the nurses that had been with me. They had told me they didn't remember, didn't know. Yet, all of those moments I would cry and cry over it, all those letters I had written to no one in all. Those letters, that had said to him that I was forever grateful, and that maybe I would find him.

Here he was, Liam with his caring and kind ways. I should have guessed it before, but that dream.

"Liam." I said exasperatedly, looking into his eyes. "Why didn't you tell me..." I swallowed hard, fitting my palms together. I felt the anger inside of me, he should have told me. He should have. No questions to it.

"I-I was afraid. I was afraid you would be disappointed that I wasn't anything special." He stuttered, and I didn't know what I felt. It was an impossible mix of everything that I have felt over those two years.

"I spent all those days searching for you... you knew my name. You knew what I looked like. That day in the coffee shop, you sat down across from me," I mumbled, my expression probably still shocked. He shifted in his seats, holding his head in his hands. He looked like tired, with small bags underneath his eyes.

"I wanted to find you. I swear to god there wasn't a day that passed that I didn't think about you." He choked out, his eyes filling with water. He thought about me, he didn't know me. Someone cares, not just because they feel sorry for me. But because they genuinely care.

"Raven. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I could tell, in his voice, that the tears were soon going to spill from his eyes. I didn't know how to respond, all I knew was that I found my superhero. The one thing in life that was my priority for 2 years.

"I can't believe I finally found you." I whispered after a minute, finally able to come up with a sentence. He slowly smiled, and something fluttered inside of me. Like, what they say is butterflies? But that sounds cheesy, I'll name them something else, like a ball bouncing around inside of me. That seems okay, a balloon too. Why not throw in a whole zoo?

"You know, I actually found you, that day in the cafe. Sitting alone with your hands around the cup tightly, staring out the window. 'Thought you were just real until I blinked." He chuckled softly, leaning in closer to me. The sides of my mouth turned up into a smile, I just couldn't believe it. I always thought I was chasing a dream, yet here I am living it.

To think it was someone like Liam, someone so kind-hearted and caring. Someone who had their life together, someone who showed me a place that was filled with happiness.

Maybe this could be a beginning of something, just maybe.

Ahh! Sorry for leaving all of you readers there waiting for the next chapter, seeing how we almost lost Raven in it! Here's the chapter, remember i always appreciate feed back so would you do the honors of commenting? Please&Thank youu? Haha, I love you guys.

Alaia

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