Change Me (Camila Cabello & Jack Gilinsky)

Eleven

Camila

These past few days have been great, spending time with Jack.

He's become so important to me so quickly and it almost scares me.

Who am I kidding, it terrifies me right now.

It's a rush though, I love the way he makes me feel.

Today I had a good feeling, I woke up feeling great and something about today made me think it will be a day to remember.

I even dressed up and curled my hair differently, I don't know something about today.

I began humming a tune and went downstairs, today we would be heading to Las Vegas.

We're staying there for a few days in a nice hotel I heard, we should be there today.

I smiled to myself and realized I was up very early compared to everyone.

It was 8:21 and I wandered to the den and Jack was already down there to my surprise.

He looked like he hadn't slept at all.

His bags were dark as ever and his eyes were sunken in, looking puffy.

He didn't look anything like normal, with his hair looking like he ran his fingers through it a million times, he was staring blankly at the TV.

I've never seem him look like such a wreck before.

"Jack?" He maybe glanced at me for a fraction of a second and went back to his same blank stare.

"What's wrong?" I stood in front of him.

He did the same thing as before, glancing at me like I was nothing.

"Just tell me, you look...."

I couldn't even find the right word to describe him.

"Deceased? Yeah I know I wish I was."

I raised my eyebrows in disbelief in his tone.

I couldn't even find what he meant by it. Sarcasm? Sadness?

"Why are you being this way?"

"Just stay away from me." He rose to his feet.

"But-"

"But nothing Camila. Whatever we are-friends you like to say even though you don't deserve the privilege- I don't wanna be in your life anymore."

Ouch.

"Jack-"

"Just-just shut up and stay away from me. I don't care." His tone was so cold.

The past few days, his eyes were always that beautiful tan, now they were back to the almost black color, that you could get sucked into and never let out.

He was back to being ice cold.

Lately, he was soft as water, but I guess he froze and became cold once again.

Maybe this all was just too good to be true.

-

We arrived at the hotel and I would be sharing a room with Andrea, while the boys were broke off into their own little groups as well in pairs and Madison and Maggie were paired together.

I've avoided Jack ever since our morning encounter, just like he pretty much wants me to.

But he's been like this all day, hostile.

Towards everyone actually, it's not the casual sarcasm you get from him but it's snapping on people and saying disrespectful things.

Almost all of us were squished together in the elevator, making it hard to breathe.