Camila
"Do you even think he would care anymore?" Andrea turned to me.
"Who?"
"Jack, do you think he would care anymore?"
"Care about what?"
She rolled her eyes, and sighed.
"Do you think Jack would care anymore...if you like went on a date."
"Date with who?"
"Oh my god Camila, stop making me repeat myself. I'm talking about if Jack would get jealous if you went on a date with Beau." She frowned.
I didn't listen the first time cause all I kept thinking about was last night.
Maybe he was a little bit jealous, but I was jealous of him and Madison so what's even the difference?
There barely is one.
"I don't know, maybe. He seemed hurt by the mention of his name last night but who really wouldn't? We had a little....fling."
I don't even know what we had.
It's hard to explain things you didn't even get the chance to piece together before they all fell apart.
If that makes any sense.
It seems like nothin makes sense anymore in all honesty.
"But he was still hurt cause last night was the anniversary of Josie's death."
That also is true in fact.
"Look, the truth is Camila I think you and Beau should try to have a relationship. I see the way how things are between you, they seem better. But, that's just my perspective."
(A/N: ANDREA WTF STOP TRYIN TO FILL HER HEAD WITH LIES SHE LOVES JACK)
Maybe she was right.
Maybe she was wrong.
I don't know how I feel, I don't know if I even want to pursue a relationship....ever again.
"I see it as you and Jack as polar opposites; Day and Night, Water and Fire, Heaven and Hell, North and South. I don't see how you can find any sort of happiness from someone who shares none of the same characteristics, hobbies, or even shares somewhat of the same mindset as you. How could you find love when there's nothing there?"
She waited for me to answer but I just slightly shrugged.
"Sometimes it's better to fall in love with someone who isn't the same as you. It's better to have different interests so they can show you and teach you new things about...stuff you didn't even realize was real or could be possible, it's better to have a different....mindset sometimes, because now you have an outlet to a whole other world." I explained.
"Wait, are you saying you're falling in love with him?"
"I think I already fell, and crashed hard into the ground because he didn't catch me. But I can't help myself from him. I-I don't even think I want a relationship right now but my feelings won't stop."
"Does he know that?"
I shook my head.
"I don't want him to know, I want him to try. I want him to be unsure if I want to be with him or not cause that will make him try harder. I want to matter to him but at this point I think Madison matters most to him now, not me."
I sipped my coffee.
"Madison?"
"She stayed the night at the house last night, I heard her sneak in."
