The room is dark.
The street lights are casting shadows onto the wall.
There is no sound.
There are four blinking lights in the corner,
And I watch them.
I'm counting each blink-every flash.
My phone stops vibrating with every new message-it's dead.
I see you in my head, the only colour.
I close my eyes.
I'm scared.
The intensity of the light in your eyes,
The curve if your nose,
The fullness of your lips.
"We're just friends," I say.
"There's no such thing," I hear in my head.
It's your voice.
I'm scared.
Your laugh.
Your touch.
I'm so scared.
Because I don't know what I would do for you,
What lengths i would go to.
Sometimes I just want to lean in and kiss you.
Just out of the blue.
Will you catch me as I fall for you?
Will you notice as I plummet past you?
It scares me.
The power goes out.
The stars are shining brightly.
I move to the window,
My footsteps echoing,
Yearning to echo with another's.
Alone,
I gaze up at the moon.
It is full-glorious.
I wish to see the rays of Dawn.
There is sound now.
I hear the wind.
It whistles loudly.
It is dark. So dark.
It's like I am in space,
In the great cosmos,
Surrounded by everything and nothing.
I'm in the void.
But when I gaze at the earth,
At you, Earth,
the power returns.
Light springs up at every corner of the globe.
Somehow, in someway, it calms my breathing.
I close my eyes for the last time
As I see, really see, every piece of Civilisation.
Every era. Every person. Every animal.
I envision it.
I float away into the unknown.
I am weightless.
Goodbye, Earth.
I'll see you soon.
And I'll miss being a part of
your light.
I take comfort in the fact that
You will become a beacon of light
For me.
And she will be a part of that.
So whenever I open my eyes,
I will see
My
One
Beautiful
Angel
In your light, Earth.
My mind is abuzz.
I love you, angel.
