You're always on my mind.
Your name constantly lingers on my lips.
I see your smile behind my closed eyes.
But what do I say to you?
I mean, we talk. We laugh together.
But what do I say?
My mind is a rush of thoughts and images moving so fast,
I can't stop them.
I can't pick them out.
I can't separate them.
It's a blur.
And you're a part of it.
You're the cause of it.
My heart beats faster.
I stop thinking straight.
My breathing falters.
I just want to hold you.
I want to hold you close.
I want to kiss your forehead,
Your lips, your cheeks.
But all of this? Thinking about it hurts. A lot.
So I'm going to think about carrots and apples.
And maybe I'll blend each one
Into a juice
To drink.
Because they aren't complicated.
Because they keep my mind off of you.
