i understand ive said the same shit again and again and again
im just trying to understand it i dont mean to repeat myself and im sure your so fucking sick of hearing me re understand whats been wrong this whole time and think ive finally got it
i wouldnt wish this shit apon anyone i wouldnt even want you to understand the shit my heads gone through over the last year or so, its fuckkng terrifying being scared to not be busy 24/7 because im so afraid of thinking
you couldn't imagine how hard its fucking been
fuck im sure no ones even mad or annoyed at me but everytime i bring it up with anyone i just feel like there sick of mw bringing ut up and saying the same shit
BUT IM BARELY CLOSER TO UNDERSTANDING IT COMPARED TO THIS TIME LAST YEAR THE ONLY RHING THAT FUCKING CHANGED IS THAT I CAN FINALLY FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT FUCK
YOU ARE READING
iykwim
Non-Fictionreal and severe trigger warnings, im venting and telling the story of how i feel when i cant keep it to myself anymore. Please dont worry for me I will be okay and i have people who love me to pick me up when i get really bad but for now this is jus...
