the shower wasnt even that cold tbh to think id been terrified since i last had one back in like 2018 i think ill just stop worrying and let fate decide for me
my body image has gone to shit again its not just me now tho i feel like everyone around me is constantly pitying me and sees me a this big fat fucking waste of space
i wanna starve but i cant stop eating i can never tell when im hungry but i constantly want to eat it's probably a coping mechanism because of all the shit going on with my boyfriend it feels like were falling apart which is terrifying because hes been the only solid thing ive had over the last 4 or so years no matter what went wrong i had him and the fact that now its us that are facing problems is something that hurts to even think about
i just wish everything could be like how it was everythings just been getting worse i just wanna go back in time and be happy again
i want to go back to when we first met i want to fall in love with him all over again i wanna kiss him for the first time again everything was so easy im such a fool
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Non-Fictionreal and severe trigger warnings, im venting and telling the story of how i feel when i cant keep it to myself anymore. Please dont worry for me I will be okay and i have people who love me to pick me up when i get really bad but for now this is jus...
