travellers || Woosan

19 | answer

As soon as the meeting with Seonghwa's parents had ended, Hongjoong immediately took his leave. He could not stay there any longer with everyone around him while he was simply there, holding back all sorts of obvious reactions that would clearly show the pain he is feeling inside. He simply told everyone he had somewhere to be, had something to do when in reality, all plans he had for tonight involved his longterm partner, the man he loves the most,Park Seonghwa.

The very man who decided Hongjoong was not important enough to fight for.

So the moment he arrived in his dorm, Hongjoong hurried into his room, grabbed his bag and started shoving his stuff inside, all while holding back the overwhelming rush of emotion, his burning eyes and the urge to just scream out. That has to wait though. He does not want to let it all out just yet. Not like this. Not when he has to pack and get out of this suffocating shared space of theirs as quickly as possible.

All he wants is to be able to breathe again. Is that really too much to ask for?

Well, apparently so, considering that only a few, short minutes after he has entered his room, the one person he wants to see the least right now, comes walking in after him. But Hongjoong does not spare him a single glance.

"Joongie -"

"Go away."

"No, I'm not going to leave you like this... please just hear me out, okay?", Seonghwa pleads, trying to still sound somewhat gentle as he carefully approaches his love further, stepping in front of him and looking at him with slight horror in his flawless features.

"I don't want to hear anything. Don't talk to me.", Hongjoong presses out somehow, gulping right after that. This is just not it. This is too hard to handle.

"Hongjoong, please -"

"No, Seonghwa, I have waited enough already.", Hongjoong says, his voice cracking in the end as he can no longer hold his tears back. He is usually a patient man and he loves Seonghwa more than anything, but he is in so much pain and truly just fed up with still being kept a secret. Everyone reaches a point sometime when things get too much and for Hongjoong it took an entire six years of being in a secret relationship to reach said point.

He grabs his bag and makes his way towards the door, trying so hard not to let more of his tears fall and look even more pathetic than he already feels right now. Hongjoong did not want to be this emotional in this exact moment.

But Seonghwa quickly catches up with him and holds onto Hongjoong's arm.

"No, please... don't leave me, Hongjoong...", Seonghwa begs, actually crying though as he so desperately holds onto his partner, not willing to let him go in any way whatsoever. He cannot lose Hongjoong. He cannot lose the only person he has ever truly loved. "I couldn't say no to them without giving her a chance. I couldn't just step out of that."

"Really? Because I think you could have, Seonghwa.", Hongjoong says, gathering every bit of anger and courage he has to offer right now to make a point without breaking down. "Because the issue is not your parents, it's you being a fucking coward."

"I'm not -"

"What? Don't believe me? Then tell me, Park Seonghwa, if you were straight and I was a woman without any powers whatsoever, would you have told your parents about us?", Hongjoong asks and Seonghwa stays silent, not able to say no as easily as he wishes he could. He wants to, he really does. He wants to tell Hongjoong anything he wishes to hear if that is able to make him stay. But for some reason, the words he wants to say are not leaving his lips. "That's what I thought. Because it's easy that way. They might not approve of a random girl that is not part of the organisation, but they would have to accept it somehow. But adding the fact that your lover is a man and part of an Aurora subdivision, you just know they would never accept that. So no, you could never tell them about the two of us as long as I am who I am."