Love unfolding

Poems

1999

Thursday September 2nd.

I sit alone in my room, waiting for Ginny to come home, Harry is out with Draco, and Hermione is on a date with Ron, so I sit alone, in my sacred room, filled with comfort and thoughts. The thoughts are spinning in my mind and I cant concentrate. The last ten minutes I have been trying to read, but I can't seem to focus on anything. Just staring at the book, glansing on that same word, reading that same sentence over and over again. I throw the book across the room, it lands in the bed. I take a pencil and a piece of paper and start writing:

In the midst of life's complexities, I find myself lost,
Uncertain about the future, and the emotional cost.
Though surrounded by loved ones who deeply care,
I can't shake this feeling of being adrift in despair.

Their lives seem put together, on a steady course,
While I grapple with doubts and inner remorse.
I wonder if they understand my inner strife,
As I navigate through the challenges of life.

I yearn to share my fears and vulnerability,
But a part of me holds back in silent humility.
Afraid of burdening them with my own pain,
I withdraw into myself, trying to maintain.

It's hard to see beyond the fog of uncertainty,
As I watch them chart their paths so confidently.
Comparisons haunt my thoughts day and night,
Feeling inadequate, struggling to see the light.

Yet, deep down, I know their love is true,
Their support unwavering, as they often show.
Though I may feel lost and distant right now,
They're there to catch me if I stumble, somehow.

I recognize that each journey is unique,
And it's okay not to have all the answers we seek.
With time, I hope clarity will come my way,
As I navigate through the unknown, day by day.

In this maze of life, I'll find my own pace,
Embracing the challenges, no matter the case.
And as I come to terms with what's in store,
Their love will guide me, stronger than before.

So, I'll open up my heart and share my soul,
Trusting that in their love, I'll find my role.
Though feeling lost, I know I'm not alone,
For their presence and care make this house a home.

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I put the pencil down when I hear the door unlock, it's probably just Hermione and Ron coming home, and if I know them right, they will run straight to either the bathroom or their bedroom, and then it's best if I just stay here in my room. But when I hear a more pleasant voice: "Is anyone home?" I almost jump from my chair, Ginny's home, finally. I get to the entrance and Ginny drops her bag at the sight of me, I feel a surge of happiness running trough me with a million miles an hour, I hug Ginny tightly, and I dont want to let go of her, she pulls away slightly and our lips meet in a sweet and tender kiss, reminding me that she missed me too. When our lips part I see what she is wearing. She is dressed in a green jersey, on one side is to big yellow H's with an eagle claw right under, and on the left side is a yellow number six. "You made the team" I exclaim. 

"I did." Ginny says relieved.

"Tell me all about it." I say, dragging her to the couch.

"Well it was a lot like we did at Hogwarts, just with only women, which was much more terrifying that you might think, they were all huge, I felt really small beside them, and turns out, I was the youngest they have ever accepted. They normally go for women in their start twenties, but the coach was so impressed with my agility and fast relexes I made the team almost at the spot."

Listening to Ginny talking about Quidditch makes me so proud of her and I really admire her, in every way possible. Listening to her leads my thoughts out of the loneliness and I dont feel as lost anymore. While Ginny speaks, Ron enters the apartment followed by Hermione, Hermione has a grin on her face but when Ron runs to Ginny and says excitedly: "You made the team? I'm so proud of you." Ginny just starts laughing at Rons outburst. I look at Hermione and I see that her expression has changed to a rather dissapointed face than the grin she had before, and I think I know why. Ron hugs Ginny tightly and I walk over to Hermione and asks: "You had other plans I see?"

"What do you mean?" Hermione asks, trying to hide her dissapointment.

I give her a look that only she understands and then she says: "Fine, you're right, we had a plan, but I don't think Ron are up to it now."

"Don't you get enough? You know we can hear you every time." I say acting annoyed.

"Wait, shit, I didnt know, sorry." Hermione says her embarassed.

"Nah, I'm just playing, we can hear you, but I get it."

"Are you sure it's okay?" Hermione sighs relieved.

"Yeah, sure, just be a bit more considarate, you don't live alone. You know that right?"

"Haha, very funny sis." Hermione mocks. "But you should be proud of her, you know she worked really hard for this."

"Believe me I know, I am so proud of her, she is even the youngest who have ever made the team."

"Impressive." Hermione says shortly.

I am truely proud of Ginny, and obviously Ron is too. 

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Puplished: 26-07-23