S.O.S. Monsters Within

Entry 14: Is This It?

•My Last Entry:

A question startled me.
How would you describe your life?

I didn't even need to think about it and simply wrote,

"Its like living in the water."

It's relaxing and I feel full, like I have everything, and I could finally close my eyes and relax. Though, it is scarier once you see and felt its dark side.

Slowly submerging deeper into the darkness, and the harder you struggle, you lose the last breath you have kept. As if you've got no other choice but to fall deeper and wait for someone notice that you're painfully drowning.

Giving up, the darkness and coldness of the water creeps into you and turns everything dull and feel numb. A forced scary tranquility.

Holding desperately on those slowly turning poisonous last breath, you'll start hallucinating and hear voices that taunts you, though, the truth is, it is actually your real thoughts that you never wanted to believe no matter how true they were.

Soon, you'll finally breath out your last breath, leaving you with the oxygen your body saved instinctly. And all that's left is to give in and close your eyes. As if everything happened slowly just to torture you even though it happened faster than you thought it could be. All the struggle made you feel too tired, and soon you'll give up... You gave up.

I always think that if only I have faced it calmer and act like everything's nothing, maybe, I was able to float myself back to the surface. Keep calm and carry on...

At the end, like a cliché movie, someone would finally save you and you'll see the light again, with a gorgeous saver's lips on yours.

I've made my choice, Margaret...

Sorry for not listening to you....