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My dearest Jisung,
I'm writing this letter to you, even though I know that you might never even read it. But I hope you will, I hope you won't throw it away, but I would understand if you did. I've been thinking about you a lot lately, and I wanted to tell you how I feel, even though you might not even care.
I still love you. I always have, and I always will. You were my first love, and you'll always hold a special place in my heart, no matter what happened. I know I made a lot of mistakes, and I'm truly sorry for the pain I caused you.
I remember the first time I saw you. You were so beautiful, and I knew instantly you were someone I wanted close to me, and that I had to get to know you. There was something about you that I just couldn't resist. I was so shy, but eventually built the courage to talk to you. You were so perfect, your face, your hair, your everything was, is stunning. I couldn't help but stumble over my words. But apparently, you thought that was cute.
We started dating, and I fell in even more love with you. You were everything I had ever wanted in a boyfriend, in a lover. You were kind, funny, intelligent, and beautiful. I couldn't imagine my life without you. Without ever being held by you, or holding you.
We were together for 4 years, and they were the happiest years of my life. We had so much fun together, and we shared so many memories. I will never forget our trips to the woods, our nights out dancing, and our lazy days spent in bed. Waking up next to you every morning, and waiting for you to come back from work every night.
Remember when you tackled me on the couch because you just wanted to hold me? All the times I would hold you tighter because I never wanted you to go anywhere else? You were a cuddler and I was more than happy to give you what you wanted and more.
But then, things started to change. We started arguing more, and we walked out on each other in anger. I know that both of us were to blame for the end of our relationship, but I still regret how things turned out. To this day, I still think that is the one of the stupidest things I've done in my life, well two things. One, not trying to work things out, and two, not going back for you.
I never meant to hurt you. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, and I loved you more than anything. You were everything to me and I left because I was hurt, for no good reason. I wish someone could turn back time so we could've stayed together.
I know that we've both moved on with our lives, but I can't help but wonder what could have been if we had stayed together. Would we have gotten married? Adopted kids? I know that we had our problems, but I think we could have worked through them if we had tried harder. I regret not fighting for us more. I regret running from you because of my damn ego. And I regret not begging on my knees for you to be mine again.
And I can't even say 'maybe we weren't meant to be', because I know we were. Everyone knew we were perfect for each other. We used to laugh at all the times our parents brought up a wedding and grandchildren. And do you remember how happy and excited they were when they found out we were dating? And then when we got engaged?
I miss you every day. I miss your smile, your laugh, and the way you always made me feel. I miss everything about you.
I know this letter is probably pointless, but I just needed to get my feelings out there. I hope you're doing well, whatever you're doing.
And I know that we can't go back to the way things were, but I wanted to reach out and let you know how I feel. I hope that you're doing well, and I wish you all the best.
I'll never forget you. And if you ever want to talk, I am here, always.
All my love,
Lee Minho🐾
Jisung held the paper so tight it almost ripped. His heart felt like it had been ripped from his chest and stomped on. But then someone picked up the pieces and put them back together. That's what the letter from his ex-fiancé felt like.
Jisung read over the letter once more, his heart fluttered and sank. He chuckled, Minho still signed off with the paw print stamp, like he did back when they were kids. True, everything that was in the letter was mostly true. How they met, their families, their break up.
Jisung looked down at his desk. He took a key and unlocked the bottom drawer. Inside that drawer were his most prized possessions, mementos from childhood and things of that nature. But the most important thing he kept was his engagement ring, a band of silver with a singular diamond inlaid in the center.
"Lee Minho? Why do you do this to me? Why can't i-" Sobs broke his sentence, it hurt so much. Still being in love, but unsure about the next step. What would he do next? After the breakup, jisung's life felt like it had been stopped. Sure he had friends and a job and a whole life, but after breaking up with his fiancé, what was left?
"Sung? Are you ok in there?" Jisung wiped his eyes, "Yeah Felix, I'm ok." Felix hesitantly opened the door. He looked jisung up and down, "No you're not." Flex engulfed his friend in a hug, which jisung heartily accepted. "What happened?" Jisung pointed at his desk. Felix saw the ring and the signature, "Oh sung. Come on. Let's go do something to get your mind off it. Channie said he and jeongin are at the park."
Jisung nodded, knowing Felix was trying to help him. Staying shut up in his room wouldn't do anything but make him even more upset. Going out was the best way to cope, and it was with his best friends.
"Ok, let's go."
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hi everybody! it's been a hot minute, and i just started school back so i got pretty busy, but i should be able to post a little more often.
i don't know about this. i might give it a part two, would you guys want that?
anyways, thanks for reading this. have a great rest you your week. i love all of you

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