minsung oneshots

wishing 💔

something because I had an idea :)  [finally] my internet went out for a while and I could do NOTHING

but

i have some questions at the end so please please please answer them🙏

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Minho had been in love with Jisung from the moment they met. He could describe the scene in great detail any time he was asked, even though no one had ever asked him. Because no one knew how deep his feelings for Jisung went, not even himself.

At first, he had just marked it as a friend crush, that the way he loved the younger was they way one would care for their best friend. Minho never treated any of his friends the way he treated Jisung. Jisung had gotten away with more things than any of Minho's other friends could even fathom doing. But still, it was all friendship

As they grew up, the two became closer and closer, eventually moving in together so their college expenses would be cheaper. It was paradise in that apartment for Minho. Just him and the boy he claimed in his heart as he platonic person.

All the nights were they would stay up late together and watch movies or just goof around.  Minho's heart beat increased all the times that Jisung would snuggle into his side and fall asleep during movies. It didn't matter to either of them that they had to be up early for classes the next day, they were just glad to have someone to have fun with. A best friend no matter what.

Minho tried his hardest to keep all romantic feelings at bay, especially when Jisung started dating a guy in his literature class.  But it was during one of those nights when Jisung talked about all the things he would want to do on a date that he let himself except the reality of his feelings.

Minho wanted to be the one to do all those things with Jisung. He longed to be the one to make his blush and smile that way he did whenever he talked about his new boyfriend. No one knew and Minho made sure to hide so well that no one would see the way his eyes lingered on Jisung for longer than they were supposed to or how the corners of his lips instantly lifted whenever the younger spoke.

And so Minho could also describe the way his heart felt when Jisung had told him how much he loved Jae. All he could bear to do was hold back a grimace and smile. For months he pretended to care about Jae and Jisung's relationship, while in reality, he was doing all he could to not burst into tears.

So he was torn when Jisung moved out to live with Jae instead. Minho was happy that he was gone so he wouldn't have to hear about the man that he wanted to be all the time. But he was empty, living alone without the person he loved most who would never love him back.

And there was no one he could go to to express how he felt because there was no way he could tell any one his friends that he has been in love with Jisung for years. After a while, Minho broke down to his father, the only person who raised him after his mother left while Minho was a child.

Crying on his father's shoulder wasn't ever where Minho saw himself when he thought of the future.

So when Jisung came to class one day with a huge smile on his face and a shine on his finger, Minho had to excuse himself from the group and leave the room. He told them that he was just going to go the library but as soon as he was out of sight, he ran.

He went straight to his car, throwing his bag forcefully in the back and wishing he could throw himself into the car the same way. He slammed his forehead into the steering wheel, almost begging that his feelings would just fall out and he would be able to live unbothered.

Minho drove directly to his father's house, he couldn't bear the idea of going back inside the campus and running into Jisung and having to explain why he left so abruptly. He stumbled into his childhood home blindly, tears flooding his vision.