I miss you
but
I miss the idea of what could've been more
I love you
or
I love the way you spoke my name
like it was the only word you had
I hate you
but not really
I hate the way you chose ignorance
we almost had the most beautiful love
but not really
it probably wouldn't of worked out
you weren't committed enough
not really
fully committed
that's why I fought so hard
yet it still wasn't enough
not really
was anything I did enough for you?
I want to escape this feeling
but not really
i think it's important to feel this
I want the feelings back that I wasted on us
not really
you can keep them
I hope they swarm your mind
bring you to your knees at night
make you cry in bed as you think about us
but not really.
