It's sad but depressing music helps me. Anything depressing makes me become worse but I don't feel it because I go numb. Numb means I can think clearly. Thinking clearly means it doesn't hurt. It not hurting means that I can say "I'm fine." Saying "I'm fine" means that my fake smile is believable. My fake smile being believable means that people stop asking how I am. People not asking me how I am means that I can continue to wear this mask. Wearing this mask is the easiest thing I've done, other than falling for people.
