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❛ Crimson ❜

⌗ 62; third person ✎ᝰ

Mason hovered over Mara's packed bags. The latter had walked out for some fresh air following their talk that morning. Riley stands behind her; at a distance that gives the latter enough breathing space to gather her thoughts.

"I feel awful." Mason dropped down to her knees. Her heart had ached endlessly since the last kiss she shared with her best friend.

' You just weren't mine to lose.' Mara's words play endlessly through Mason's mind. There is little to nothing that she could do to reverse this sadness. Six words that cut deep within her soul like a stake to the heart; inevitably bleeding.

Riley felt her heart burn with the kind of feeling that engulfs you—like a building caught in a fire. She takes a step forward, careful not to startle the other as she placed a hand on Mason's shoulder.

"I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Tears run endlessly down Mason's face as she clutches a fist over her chest. "This is all my fault."

Riley shook her head. "It's not." She wasn't sure if she'd be reassuring in any way, but she still tried nonetheless. She'd try several times over just to comfort the girl; she meant that much to her and more. Denying it was no use. Riley had never not loved Mason. To see her weak and fragile like this pained her. " I need you to know that, Maisie."

Mason froze. Riley had that impact on her. It could never fade away nor cease to exist; that's just how it is. The name felt like comfort to her. Mason felt a little more at ease. "But it is..."

Riley knelt down beside Mason. "I don't know if you'd believe me or not. But it'll be worth a try..." The other girl turns to face her. "When you went to sleep last night...Mara asked to talk to me." She watched as Mason's eyes widened.

Mason wiped her tears with the back of her palm. "I know." She breathed. "I don't know what about but Mara told me that she finally understood it."

Riley tilted her head slightly. "Understood what?"

The room falls quiet for a mere moment as Mason fixes herself into a more comfortable position. "She understands how I feel." She sits with her knees pressed against her chest. "For you." Riley felt the air leave her lungs for a mere moment. "I think it's always been obvious," Mason chuckled lightly. "And to her most especially. I think she knew deep down where my heart really lied despite how I felt for Mara too. And I want you to know that I'm sorry..." She feels her heart skip several beats as Riley stares into her eyes.

"What are you apologising for?" Riley knew what. Part of her felt curious as to what the latter had to say. "There's no reason for you to be."

Mason shook her head firmly. "I have to. How could I be in love with you despite everything that happened and have feelings for someone else? Don't you feel upset knowing that? Does it not hurt hearing that? And coming from me..."

Riley chuckled softly. "Mara tried to apologise to me for the exact same thing. Truthfully, I'll have to give you the same answer I gave her."

Mason cocked her brow. "What answer?" She sniffled. "Should I be scared?" Her voice soft.

Riley chuckled once more. "No, you don't have to be." She smiled warmly. "I'll be honest when I say that my feelings for you haven't changed. You'd think I'd cut myself some slack and change my mind after you walked out on me." Mason felt another tear roll down her cheek. Guilt was slowly creeping up on her once again. "But that day only proved to me further that there's quite literally nothing you could do to make me stop loving you, Maisie. And in saying that...I still love you regardless of the fact that you fell for your best friend. I don't care. And I don't care if you still do. You can't just turn them off or throw them away. Nothing is ever easy like that...even if we really want them to be."