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❛ Lost & Found: Part One ❜

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author's note;

had to get off tiktok because my fyp is filled with newjeans unconsciously flirting with each other and now i feel 10x lonelier HAHAHAHA so here's an update!

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The windshield wiper sways vigorously as it removes impediments to visibility as Mason drives through the perilous conditions. Her heart rate remains unsteady as she leans forward to better grasp her field of vision. She takes several shaky breaths as she takes a sharp left turn down Gentle Rain Drive. Mason snickers at epithet—it was contradictory of the real life weather conditions. "How uncanny." She uttered.

The automative head unit of her car signals an incoming call as she takes another left turn down another street. "I'm not answering." Mason muttered. She had lost count of all the calls she received in the last fifteen minutes. Mason hadn't been driving for long, but her sudden disappearance had led to severe worry from both her friends and family. Mason couldn't deal with the pressing matter at hand. For her peace of mind, she decided to block Riley. Indefinitely.

Mason had become quite bothered by the constant ringing—each call dragging out longer than the last. She decides to park her car on the side of the road for a brief moment to check the masses of calls and texts. She couldn't help but laugh at the concern of her loved ones.

It felt a lot more hurtful than it did before. A sinking realisation that most people had known, except her. Mason could feel her eyes start to sting once more as she took several deep breaths to try and fight the aching pain in her chest.

She sent several dry texts to her cousins Renz and Mika who had been blowing up her phone. Her mother seemed to have given up half way given that her last call and text was over twenty minutes ago. Mason's thumb hovered over Riley's contact. She wasn't sure if she wanted to see it. Mason rubbed her eyes dry and shook her head. "No, I'm not doing that." She swallows the emptiness that sits at the back of her throat as she presses the sleep/wake button simultaneously with the volume up. "There."

She successfully switches off her phone before taking her car out of park and driving off to no particular destination. All she wanted to do was getaway and breathe. This was meant to be a new chapter. Mason's brain had fogged up. There was confusion mixed with desperation and intrusiveness. Where did she go all wrong?

Mason thinks back to several weeks ago. She had been happily reviewing her top three preferences with Riley. All of them carefully thought out and put in place for her bright future. Riley may not have been the only reason, but the latter was definitely her biggest reason. Her choices were simple and as follows:

1. Acceptance rate
2. Is it my dream school?
3. Does it offer my course?
4. Riley

Four reasons and in no particular order. Riley had always been her utmost priority, even when it came to university applications and well...the university itself. Mason was quite happy to study alone, given the fact that Riley wouldn't be too far. But a whole new country is too much.

Mason couldn't comprehend it. She couldn't quite comprehend her own feelings either. Was she in the wrong? Are her feelings valid? Is it okay to be disappointed and upset for such reasons? She racked her brain with new questions and answers that didn't quite seem to ease her. It only amplified her problem.