Always By Your Side

Break

Two weeks at home. Should be fine right. Wrong. I have a dinner alone with pascal which is never good I love her with all my heart she was there when my mother wasn't when my mother didn't care she was there but whenever she wants to talk to me alone without the boys it's always serious last time it was when I got back from Austria to sign my contract and she wanted to make sure I was doing ok and all and she has a way of getting the whole truth from me. Charles and I landed in nice yesterday night and he drove us to Monaco I unpacked my suitcase and dropped into bed falling asleep immediately. I woke up and went to Charles' apartment to make us breakfast I was quite an irresponsible adult I never buy food and never charge my phone I go on endless shopping sprees and get someone else to clean my house. Charles always has food always has a clean house and is always Available when you call him. I walk in and I know he's still sleeping but I make breakfast anyways I make omelettes and cut some fruit up and put it all into plates before bringing it over to his balcony along with some coffee for me and tea for Charles. I take a picture of the cute table set up with the view of Monaco and go to wake up Charles

"Char wake up I made breakfast" I say as I jump into bed next to him and reach over him for his phone I take a picture of him sleeping and send it to myself

"I have so many pictures I will gladly post on my Instagram if you don't wake up come on the food will get cold" I say as I shake him a bit and he groans

"Fine I'll get up only because you made food" he says as he gets up and I hand him his glasses which he puts on. I'm already wearing workout clothes as we are going to the gym after breakfast

"Get changed char remember we're going to the gym later" I say as I walk out his room to let him change

I sit on the balcony with my book and start reading it as I drink my coffee and wait for Charles to eat

"New book?" He asks as he sits down on the char infront of me

"No re reading" I say as I put my bookmark inside the page and close the book

"His favorite book" he says and I nod

"Les Misérables" we both say and smile

"It's quite nice today even in March" he says

"Yeah it's not that cold today" I say as I start to eat my food

"You may be an irresponsible adult Linnie but you will always be an amazing cook" he says and I smile

"I have dinner with maman tonight" I say

"Just you two" he asks

"Yeah I'm kinda nervous" I say

"I'm sure it will be fine she always wants the best for you, you know that right" he says

"Yeah I just don't want to disappoint her" I say

"She's always proud of you Lynn" he says

"I know it's just I feel like I need to get my life together and whenever anyone tries to help me I just push them away like with lance ge helped me a lot but as soon as things got tough I pushed him away" I say

"Lynn you know how much lance hated your friendship with me and Pierre" he says

"I know it's just that some part of me did love him I just wouldn't admit it to myself" I say

"Its not your fault celine you have been through so much I just wish you understood who is really there for you" he says and looks down at his plate and away from me

"I do Charles i know who was there with me when he died I won't ever forget that" I say

"I wish it was easier" he says