Always By Your Side

Miami

I wake from my nap to call from Pierre

"Hey Pierro" I say as I sit up in bed

"Hey Linnie you're flying with us right" he says

"Uhm I didn't think I was going to" I say as I get up from bed

"Why wouldn't you be though" he says as I'm getting all my bags to the front door since I was due to leave in a few hours anyways

"Yeah you're right I'm sorry what time are we meeting at the airport" I say

"In three hours" he says

"Ok perfect thank you for calling" I say

"No problem Linnie love you" he says

"Love you too" I say as I hang up

I wonder if Charles suggest me flying with them he's usually the one that organizes the flight it doesn't matter anyways I'm still pissed at him. I walk over to my closet and pick up a pair of leggings and look at my hoodies to choose one I look at all of them and stop at one. His black hoodie with a print of his win in Monza on the back it's was his favorite we were watching a movie last month and he took it off because he got hot he left it at my house and I just washed it and hung it up forgetting to give it back to him. I take it off the hanger and hold it close to my chest it still smells like him. Like vanilla and leather not to strong not to subtle it smelt like him like Charles my Charles the one that I had lost maybe forever but I hope not. I sit and bed with my head in the hoodie shedding tears. I quickly contained myself as I had to leave I slipped the hoodie on and wiped my eyes again looking at myself in the bathroom mirror I splashed my face with cold water to get rid of the puffy eyes and put my hair in a loose braid I put my uggs on and got my suitcases as I headed out the door I look up to Charles' door and wonder if he's left yet and if I should ask him if he wants to ride together but I stop myself from going inside he doesn't want to speak to me I've been so stupid I should have just picked him but it can't be like this forever maybe I did the right thing picking James he makes me happy... but so does Charles. I get into a taxi to nice and just sit with my thoughts the whole ride the taxi drops me right at the private flight terminal I do security checks and get my passport checked I then get brought out to the tarmac where the usual visa jet we take is a man helps me with my bags and puts them in the baggage compartment I take my hand bag and climb up the steps shaking myself at the top step before going in to calm myself down I set in and get greeted by a flight attendant I smile at her and turn to the cabin I see Pierre and Charles sitting on the two opposite sides of the plane Charles was looking down at his phone and Pierre had a book in his hand I sat down infront of Charles and he still didn't look up Pierre looked up and smiled at me

"Salut Lynn" he says

"Salut Pierro" I say back I put my bag on the floor and pull out my book 'les miserables' it's my favourite book Jules introduced me to it I read it at least once a month it reminds me of him he always has a book with him and so do I it's one thing we were very similar in our passion for books and poetry.

I open the book and start reading from where I left off the flight attendant comes to tell us we are taking off Pierre and I look up and nod but Charles is still looking down at his phone. I haves the book open in my hands and I look up at Charles well more like stare I'm just hoping to catch his attention Pierre does his little dance as we take off and he soon falls asleep but I still don't take my gaze off Charles he finally looks up and I was sure he noticed the hoodie because his gaze softened his eyes were filled with sadness his eyes slightly puffy and his face drained of life just like mine.

"I like your hoodie" he says and a broken half smile forms on his face

I feel a lump forming in my throat