1. Am I constantly scared of seeing what I saw again?
Kind of. It's more like a constant fear or being triggered. I won't typically think of what happened unless I've been triggered.
2. Is there anything that makes going into an episode less likely to happen?
As far as I know, there is not. But over time becoming triggered has been a lot less frequent. When it first happened I could be triggered by something as small as seeing a child with their mom, not anymore though. A good example would be those ads for FPS games. Seeing those used to triggered me and put me into an episode, but now I can just skip the ad with only some discomfort. If someone mentions the word gun or the word suicide, I won't necessarily go into a full episode anymore, but it will at least be very uncomfortable for me, and sometimes triggering, but not enough to go into an episode.
And now for a small update!
I've been a little inactive lately because I have had more times with my therapist, so I was fairly busy. But it was for a good reason. I was in a pretty bad episode during July, but my therapist and friends and my dad said they all noticed that, despite it being a very bad episode, I showed severe improvement. I wasn't heavily dependent on anyone at all, and I was able to cope on my own, and it was just generally a lot better than my previous episodes, despite how much distress I was in. And my therapist said she's noticed me getting triggered a lot less and showing a lot of overall improvement, so she wanted to give me some "exposure" exercises, so I've been doing those. (For example, watching one of those FPS game ads without skipping it and writing how it made me feel).
So, yes. That is why I have been gone, I hope you've all been doing well :)
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