The Love We Failed To Unfold [COMPLETED]

Chapter 4

Freen

The whole drive to the restaurant is full of chattering and fights inside the van that carry all of us towards the location of our dinner and everyone is occupied with different stuffs they are doing.

Except for me.

My mind wander off to a certain Thai-British girl that ditch our dinner leaving me all alone in here.

I sigh for the millionth time now thinking about Becky. Something is wrong with her. Her smiles never reach her eyes and I feel like she have her walls up in between us. She never acted like that before, not once, not ever so it surprise me to see her declining the team dinner.

"Stop thinking about her Freen. As to what Bec said, you should enjoy your own space." Noey.

"I just wonder why she didn't join us for dinner. It's the first time."

"Maybe Becky is really tired Freen. Stop over assuming things." Kade.

"I can't stop it okay. This is the first time she refuse me. Is she mad at me or what? I didn't do anything right? Or did I? I didn't make her mad today right?"

"I doubt that Freen." Nam replied.

"What? What did I do?"

" I don't know. She kind of ran away when you were filming with Heng and she came back with a red swollen eyes."

My mind went blank for a minute.

Did she cry? Why would she cry? I don't make her jealous right? I didn't do anything to make her mad or do I?"

"Why?"

"I don't know either." She replied.

I stopped for a minute and look outside thinking whether I should go back and join Bec or go to the dinner but Nam beat me to it.

"Don't even dare think of going back Freen. You are always with Becky. You should let us have you too now."

I sigh. It's true. This days I am always with Becky. Becky this, Becky that. Becky don't want this. Becky don't want that. Becky is all over my head clouding up my head. If my mind is a boarding house she's probably the regular guest.

"Just let Becky be for now Freen. Maybe she is really tired and just wanted to sleep I am like that sometimes too."

Nam added.

"Are you sure?"I asked.

"Yes."

Sighing in frustration. I take my mind off Becky for a minute and tried chatting with them the whole drive.

"Freen." Nam called.

"Hmm?"

"When are you gonna tell Bec?" She asked in a low tone. We are at the backseat of the van and it is noisy inside because of the music and the loud voices of this human beings so Nam and I are not worrying if someone might eavesdrop.

"I'm waiting for the right time Nam." I replied.

"You keep saying that Freen. You and Seng got together for almost a year now and Becky is still oblivious about that. When are you gonna tell her the truth that your dating somebody else behind her back?"

It's true. Seng is my boyfriend. He is for almost a year now and Becky is still not aware of that making me feel guilty about it. I should have tell her from the very moment Seng and I got together but I didn't. The truth is I am scared. I am scared of how Becky will react. I am scared of how she will cope up with the fact that I kept it as a secret on her.

"I'm waiting for a perfect timing Nam. I swear I will tell her. Just give me time."

"Freen you shouldn't be prolonging this one. Bec is the one squeeze in between this set up. Aren't you feeling guilty about it? Aren't you even thinking of what she might feel if she knew it before even you told her? Freen get rid of the fright you are feeling. I know your scared, it's obvious on the way you talked about it. Your scared about Becky's feedback, about Becky's coping mechanism, about Becky's judgement. Your scared of the things you knew that will caused you to lose her more Freen. Your scared about the uncertain things but aren't you scared of losing Becky? Don't you even think that keeping it a secret for a long time will caused you to lose her more?" She asked. " Sometimes because we are so eager to hide something from someone to avoid them from getting hurt make it aches for them more. What are you waiting for Freen? There is no perfect time if you don't make a move. "

"It's scary Nam. I never thought it would be this scary now that I am walking into it. It's... It's making me choose between people and career. And I can't choose between them. It's hard."

"Freen, choose a person that matters most in your heart. You can't choose two people at the same time. If one would win, that means you should lose the other one to move. It's not right to want the best of both worlds Freen. It's making you become the villain of the fairytale you created."

"I'll tell her Nam. Give me two days and I will tell her. I can't tell her right now. We are filming for the new series and we have a fanboom in Hong Kong. Just let me handle it and I swear I will tell the truth right after the concert."

"Can I asked you a question?"

"Go ahead."

"What do you feel about Becky?"

That question make me stop on my trance. What do I feel for Becky? She's just my sister, I love her with all my heart and I will do everything to protect her.

"She's my sister P'Nam. She's my princess. I don't want her to get hurt or be sad. All I wanted is for her to be happy and nothing more."

"Sister your ass." Nam replied.

"It's true."

"Partly true. " She added. "Freen no sisters would ever look at her sister like her world revolves around her. No sisters will prepare her food, open her bottles, put her on her passport holder, make her your wallpaper and no sisters would get jealous when her sister is paired up with somebody else. For my own opinion Freen what you are showing Becky is far from being sisters. It is not a sister actions when you share toothbrush or when you avoid making her jealous. You are just too oblivious about your actions Freen and that can lead you to worst decisions in life."

After Nam stated that. I paused for a minute. My mind is carrying a lot of informations now that I needed to navigate myself. I think about all the she said, all of it are my actions towards Becky. All of it are what I do to Becky and I am still confused on why I am doing that. All I know is that I don't want her near anyone else. I feel like I wanted to kill someone when someone touch her much to my dislikes but I didn't see her more than a sister. Or do I?

"Okay enough thinking for now Freen. Just let her know the truth." Nam replied. " Please do it sooner Freen. You should do it so you can see who are really there for you you should look around and appreciate the people around you before you lost them completely."

I need to tell this sooner Becky. Please forgive me.

:Hey guys, this is me again. Sorry for the short updates. I am experiencing a writer's block at the moment but I will make it up to you sooner or later. Take care and smile a lot na ka. Susu na🤍

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