I know it's in the past
I hate that these memories gonna last
Maybe we should start over but my heart just started again
The pain wanted to be in vain
But my brain keeps reminding me of ur fame
Why me is what I ask
Why me is all I cry about
Try to smile every day so my dad won't see no change
My hearts in pain
My pride is in vain
U laid me on waste
And it's hard for me to erase ur image in my memory
My history but all u caused to me is misery
Jay Jay read it no girl is like u
May may get it I thought I knew u
U were there for me I was there for u
Looking towards a future that had u
As the mother of my kids
My wife in need my wife indeed
But now u left me nd u left me in speed
Wondering why i can't sleep
Why are u in my head
Feel like my bed is spinin my demons be growing stronger
I feel it everytime it seems longer
And all I do is cry to this poem hoping i wouldnt miss u back
U made my vision seem black
As u were my source of light
But now u left me in an unbearable sight
As I sit back staring at nothing knowing in my mind there's a fight
U leaving me was really a huge fright
U always seemed off
I knew something wasn't right
I would lay on my bed all night
As I thought our bond was really tight
It's so funny how I always seen u so bright
As I thought the fear I had was heights
But then I lost u like a cut string on a kite
As the outter forces had a stronger might
Now as I lay back and watch as u will
I've begged u to stay now I'm out of words to spill
Remembering all those nights I stayed up with u as u had thoughts of popping pills
As I always told u that life is about hills
As it seems like u were the void I always had to fill
Now I'm here all alone confessing what's real
U might be the last rose
But I hope ull never be my home again
