Reborn

1. Regret

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(I apologise for grammatical mistakes. English is not my first language.)

From where did my life go so wrong that I ended up becoming so pathetic?

I want to kill my sister she took everything from me. Our parents' attention and love, they never look at me the way they look at her. Why would they? She is the miracle of their life, while I'm just disappointed with an elite family child. She is a world-class talented singer and violinist. She has all the attention, all the praise in the world on her feet. The gem of everyone's eyes. And there's me who is nothing but a sore slight for the soft eyes.

My parents loathe me. My father is a Millionaire businessman, Kang Kairon. My mother, Kang Fiona, is a well-known violinist. And their first daughter, Roseanne, is their pride.

I had no talent like her, nor did I have a gorgeous look like my sister. They don't even care if I die. Honestly, it will be better if I did. They won't have to acknowledge my existence anymore.

I endlessly chase after Kim Taehyung. I fell in love with this heartless, cold fucker the moment I saw him. The funny part is, he never liked any other people; he didn't even acknowledge my presence.

I was 9 when I first saw him, and I instantly fell for him. My love for him grew as time went on. I lost everything in the process. And became someone I fear. All I just wanted was to be loved. Was it so wrong for me to want some love? I just wanted some happiness, acceptance from them.

Now that I have lost everything, even our company. I sold shares, information to get more fancy things for myself, which would make people, Taehyung, look at me once, but it never happened.
I neglected the company, which made the employees steal from it. I didn't really care though. My father got to know about that by now, since my mom and my sister are blowing my phone with calls and messages.

They'll get over it soon since they got their daughter married to the Kim, their company is worth 500 billion won. Also, Roseanne is now a world-famous singer and violinist.
She is shining like a star, which she was supposed to be beside loveable parents and a billionaire husband. Such a happy ending. What could a person want more?

I'm walking mindlessly on the street, completely soaked by the rain. I regret it so much that it physically hurts. I wish.. I wish I could go back, I wouldn't have ended up like this. It was my fault from the beginning. I always care about other people but not me. I've always wanted them to look at me, I desperately wanted no needed attention.

I should have given myself more importance, then I wouldn't have ended up this toxically pathetic whore.

"Why! why!! why!! me? " I scream at the top of my lungs in the middle of the street, looking at the sky that was pouring rain mercilessly on me.

I feel a huge force collided with me from the left It's a truck. I lay there in so much pain that made me numb blood pooling around me, "I-if I live again...I'll only choose m-me.." I whisper, closing my eyes as darkness surrounds me.

"Where am I?" I ask, particularly, one last thing I know I died then...

"Y/n " a woman called, turning around, I could see her even tho we're standing in a pitch black space, such a lovely woman. It's a dream, but it feels surreal.
She walked closer to me, and the next second she hugged me. I could feel incredible warmth from her. No one ever hugged me like this, it feels surreal. I feel my eyes tear up.

"What's wrong, dear?" she asked so softly, still hugging me. I couldn't hold up anymore, I started sobbing for everything, for every regret, for every emptiness, for every hurtful action, for everything I suffer.

She just held me, softly patting my back. I cried for an hour, or so it felt.

"What's wrong, Y/n ?" she again asked with so much warmth, no one has ever talked to me like this before.

"All I just wanted to be loved for once. Was that too much to ask? Why does no one love me?"

"Is being loved so important? " she asked placing her forehead against mine.

"What do you mean?"

"You have always wanted to be loved by someone but did you ever love yourself?" she whispered

"Huh?"

"Dear, remember if you can't love yourself, then nothing will give you peace. Be independent and don't rely on others. Now, y/n, you'll be given a second chance, try living it, not just surviving. " She softly caresses my hair.

"Let your past go and embrace the second chance you are given, dear." With the end of her word bright light forced me to close my eyes

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