Reborn

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Just like any other night Jungkook fall asleep with y/n in his embrace. 

He found himself into a abyss.

Infront his eyes y/n's past life played like a movie. He felt overwhelming emotions on every second of her life. From her birth to her death and then a chance of being reborn, he saw every second of it. 

He woke up sobbing, his breathing was heavy.  His whole body was in pain and his heart...... It was tearing into pieces. It was just a dream right? His green eyes fall on his girlfriend's sleeping figure. Yah, it has to be a dream nothing else........ But why it felt so real? Every second of it felt real. His body is still recovering from the aftershock. 

Slowly slowly his breathing become normal and pain started to go away. But his heart is paining.. And his tears are not stopping. Jungkook couldn’t dare to look at his girlfriend's sleeping face.. It's definitely not possible for someone to reborn so It's just a nightmare.. That's what he is telling himself. But then why his heart won't accept it?

He didn’t realize when the morning came or when y/n woke up. 

When y/n confronted him he told her what he saw. He wants nothing more than y/n to confirm that It's all a lie, just a disturbing nightmare nothing else. He waited for her to say it. But he only found out y/n almost turning blue due to lack of oxygen. 

Maybe she is disgusted by his nightmare? It's okay though cause he is also disgusted by it. Why y/n is not saying anything?  Why she isn’t confirming his doubts? Why? 

So, Jungkook again asked, "Tell me y/n, It's all just a baseless nightmare right?"

His green eyes couldn’t saw the thin line of tears in her eyes. Cause she lower her head at his question, her face was covered in her hair. 

Y/n is a very strong girl she do not cry. She doesn’t cry easily. There's only two or three time she has shaded tears in this life. But right now she find herself in verge of breaking down. She feels so weak and helpless at the same time, she has never felt this vulnerable. 

She bite her lips from trembling in fear, her nails dig into her palm drawing blood. 

She somehow look up to meet her bloody red ones to his green teary one. She can see Jungkook pleading though his eyes just to deny this. He will never bring this again if she denied it and he will believe her words blindly. 

But to his misery y/n's bloodshot eyes tell something else.

"Yes. It's true." the pain y/n felt is unbearable, saying those words. She hates herself when she saw tears betraying his eyes by slipping out without his permission. 

"N-no you are lying." his voice barely audible.

Jungkook's eyes shows every emotions he felt and y/n clearly noticed that. She has only herself to blame. 

This must be karma. It's true she paid more than her deed of her past life. But looks like it was not enough.  All those bad things she has done in her past life she has to pay for it. After-all karma always come back to bite. 

She cannot help but to remember all those sins she has done in her previous life. Once again guilt is destroying her inside and filling it with self-loathing . 

"That's not a nightmare. What you saw was actually true. I am reborn in this life. You didn’t saw a movie, you saw my entire past life. That was me Jungkook, a monster. I'm not what you think I am, and you saw it too." each word came out of intense hated she felt for herself.