Reborn

31. Jungkook's past 1

Jeon Jungkook pov :

I was very young when my mom and dad died. They were poor but they were so kind to people. They might not be able to give me many toys or clothes, but they give me lots of love. They protected me from the world and shielded me from every evil.  But one day they were gone. I was too young to understand what death means. My custody was given to my long-distance aunt. Suddenly I was thrown into another world.

 Where I get beaten up for every mistake I make.

 I got bullied when I hadn’t even done anything 

My aunt beat me, starved me, and punished me. She hit me when she was angry, she hit me when I hadn’t earned enough for her, she hit me when she felt like it. She said I was a useless piece of shit that should have died with my parents. Her boyfriends also did the same for me. At that point, I was used to it; my body was always filled with blood,  bruises, and sometimes broken bones. 

I did try to run away but the consequence was terrifying. When I was in high school, I thought I might not get bullied here like in middle school. But little did I know that another hell was waiting for me 'Jung Hoseok'.  He was my biggest nightmare in high school. 

School bullying can get this extreme, only known by the people who have endured this. 

Every day I feel like dying. I forget what it feels like to be a human. I always question myself what It's feel like to be a human.

Hoseok has not only tortured me physically but also manipulated me to kill myself. Once I accidentally bumped into his desk, he stabbed me all over my hand and back with his pen no matter how much I begged on my knees he never stopped . He said I should die if I can't endure this. 

I still have those stab marks on my back.

When people think getting beaten up hurts then they should experience hunger. I know the pain of being hungry. I had to work a few part-time jobs, all the housework, then getting hit daily, and then I got tortured by Hoseok on an empty stomach. 

Sometimes I have to eat a single bite after three days. I have been starved for even five days. I don’t know how I survived. All day I wished a miracle would happen and I would get a bit of food. Being hungry is worse than anything. 

Day by day I turned into a lifeless soul. An empty shell. 

I stopped hoping for a miracle. In real life, this kind of shits of doesn’t exist. I was so keen on killing myself, I was constantly starved, beaten to death, bullied and worked beyond my limit. I was so skinny that one could count my bones with one's naked eye. 

 I had had enough, I couldn’t go on like this anymore. I need to die. I need to end this and get out of the misery. Everyone is so right I should have just died with my parents. 

Even if I do not kill myself now, they'll definitely kill me sooner or later, or maybe my hunger will kill me. 

So, that day I went to the rooftop to kill myself. When I looked down from there, I felt fear, but this will be over in a few seconds, right? This is what Hoseok and Aunt told me. Once I die everything will be over. I'll be free. 

I took my steps towards the end slowly. I was only a step away from my end. 

"I need to die. I need to die. I need to die."

This was the line I chanted continuously in my head. Before I could jump off, a hand pulled me off with such force. 

What! Why!!! Noo!! I need to die. 

Who are you?  Why aren’t you letting me die? 

Little did I know this was going to change my entire life.

I have known her before; she was a rich spoiled brat. She and her lackeys were all bad people. No, she never noticed me before, and she never bullied me. She was so busy trying to catch some attention. She was the sister of the angel Roseanne Kang.

But she changed suddenly. After a vacation, she came back totally changed. She was not the same person, it was like she was a new person.

She saved me from killing myself. She saved me; she gave me something I've craved for years: it was food. I was beyond grateful. 

Next time she appears as an angel, she saved me from Jung Hoseok. She took me to the medic. To my absolute shock, she again gave me chocolate. I had starved for days. It was like the most delicious thing in the world for me.

Then I observed her again. Why would she be good to me? Of course, I asked, and she answered my questions. 

I felt my heart go insane when I saw her. I thought it was because she was a bad person and I hated her kind. 

But why do I feel like I'm safe and protected from the world? Why does she feel like the only safe place in the world for me? My heart starts to act weird whenever I'm thinking about her or I'm near her. 

She helped me and had my back when I was at my worst. 

She is none other than Kang y/n. 

She was the miracle and hope of my life. 

Y/n is like an angel, not that sweet innocent type. Y/n is an angel with a cold heart and fire wings.

 But to me, she is my fate itself.

Y/n gave me something very important to her. She said It's time for me to change my fate or suffer. 

But I decided that very moment that I would live. I've always wanted a miracle to happen, and now that I have a chance, I will not back off or run away like I always did.

That day I went to a jewellery shop, I sold the chain and kept the locket for myself. 

It gave me a huge amount of money, I've never seen this amount in my lifetime. I went home, took a few clothes, and stole food and money from my aunt. 

I wanted to post the video of Jung Hoseok bullying me, but he was so powerful, I knew it would be a matter of minutes before the video was taken down, and they'll find me and kill me. So, I decided to keep it. I was very determined from that day. One day,, I'll become strong and successful. 

I ran off from my house. I didn’t know what to do, where to go. I just run mindlessly. 

I went to a restaurant and ordered things that looked delicious. When the food arrived, I started to eat like a starving dog. People looked at me weirdly, but who cares. A man came and sat at my table. He does not look Asian. I looked around the restaurant, it's housefull, no wonder this man sits beside me. 

I should eat so much food that I can eat it all. I was eating without a care in the world. The man sometimes took a glance at me, probably judging me for behaving like a poor beggar. 

I was thinking about how I should spend my money and what I should do for a living. I saw the man was done and was going to pay. That reminds me I also need to pay. 

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