I am the Fire

Chapter 9

3rd POV:

They went deeper into the garden. Sodo was still amazed by her. The way she kept absorbing energy from the Church and the band. This place had that strange influence. Sodo felt there free and could breath and it seems that ShadowMoon also found her place. They kept walking slowly as soon as they reached beautiful opening. They sat on the grass and just sank into this place.

"What's your real name?" Suddenly Sodo asked. "I've introduced myself when we first met after the Ritual. You've never said what's your real name. It was always ShadowMoon." He said and looked at her with curiosity.

She thought for a while and said:

"It's Lillian." She said and again her sight was focused on her shoes or grass.

"That's a beautiful name. Almost like Lilith." Sodo said quietly. "I'm sorry, that's my satanistic alter ego talks." He added quickly. She smiled. It didn't bothered her. She wasn't christian, far from that, very far.

"That's fine, I'll take it as a compliment." She said and looked at him. Satanas, he was so hypnotizing. His icy blue eyes, his strong jaw, his attitude of being harsh or sometimes even bully. His straight posture, the way he walks.

ShadowMoon's POV:

Damn, he's so majestic. So beautiful. I hardly breath when he's so close. I've felt a short ache in my heart. I'll always remain just a guitar tech for him. Even if he said it wasn't a mistake to hire me into the job, there will be always someone better than me during the tours. He'll have girl every night when we'll be on tour if he'll want to. What I was thinking of when I agreed to this? This place is wonderful and feel at home, but would I be able to live with him across the corridor and during the tour with him being just nice and polite? What have I've done? It was obvious that he's my one idol I'm looking up to. But never thought that...wait. I'll fall for him like that? After all that happened in my apartment and with such short period? Come on, wake up. This will be hardest task I've ever took.

"Can we please go back? I don't feel well." I've asked. I was afraid that he'll be mad at me again. It was just 20 minutes when we'll arrived into this, without any doubt, beautiful place. But suddenly I've felt weak and sick.

Sodo's POV:

She didn't got offended when I compared her name to Lilith, what's more, she said she's taking it as a compliment. That's new one. My satanic interestings wasn't a secret, but it always scares off every girl. If I was amazed before, now I was all hers. It was going way too fast and suddenly become so fucking scary. I had my eyes on her and I've watched as she slowly started to loose that light on her face and in her eyes. She was thinking about something really hard. Fuck, maybe it really wasn't best idea to say it. My chest ached and I was about to ask is she okay and did I anything wrong, but she asked can we go back, cause she's not feeling well. I've frozed. I've fucked it up. As always. Scared her off. "We can go whenever you want. You can see rest of the property later." I said standing up and offering my hand to support her. She took my hand and I've felt most delicate hand in my own. She was so soft and fragile. We stood up and head back into the Church. She was still holding my hand, I didn't want to let go. She really looked sick and pale. And I just didn't want to loose that little touch of her I had.  We walked back and she seemed weaker with every step she took. That was alarming.

"Are you sure you'll make it into the Church? I'll carry you, it's really not that far." I asked  with serious worry in my voice. And without waiting for her answer I took her into my arms and kept going. She put her arm around my neck and drifted. At that point I was running back.

3rd POV:

Lillian tried to stay strong and focus on the path but it was like someone throw something very heavy on her and she started to limp. Sodo noticed that even that he was buried deep inside his thoughts and insecurities. He didn't think much and he picked her up and started almost running home. He ran into the building and right into her room. Placed her on her bed and covered with blankets.

"Hey, babe can you look at me please. Oh Satan! Look at me! What's going on? Talk to me, please! Lillian!" He tried to reach her with growing fear.

"I'm nobody. Why would you care about me so much?" She just said and drifted away leaving Sodo with his mouth open and so confused that the only thing that came into his mind was lay beside her and cuddle in tight grip.

He was laying there unable to move and processing what she just said. He was afraid to move and leave her in case she'll wake up and wake up alone there.

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A/N Sorry for shorter chapter. I need to get some sleep. I may post shorter chapters this week but all story is forming so clearly that I'm not sure I'll be able to write them all. We'll see how the story will develop. Stay safe!