I am the Fire

Chapter 20

3rd POV:
It's been two weeks already since ShadowMoon started to feel better. They spent a lot of time with other members of the Church. One of the best parts of the day was when the band was practicing. She loved that time. Cardi still didn't let her preparing guitars sayin' that she needs full recover and than she can do her job. Even so, they had so much fun. There always, at some point, was a moment when Sodo was throwing his pics at someone or just angrily on the floor because something went wrong. Looks like it was not just Ritual thing with him. What she loved the most, was their time alone, when he was taking her for touring around the Church and walks around the grounds. They were often coming back at that field in the middle of the forest where they came first time. It was one quite sunny day, they were laying on the grass with faces turning into each other. Then Per asked:
"Tell me something about your family. You don't talk about them much."
"There's nothing much to tell about." Lillian said after short moment of silence. "My parents are still working. Both in finance sector. I've got also grandmother, my parents are taking care of her and aunt." She just said.
"Yeah...really not much to say. What they like?" He didn't let go. He saw she left long sigh. That made him wary.
"I'm coming from very religious family. Christian church and whole that faith was always one of most important things, including members of the family being monk and one of aunt almost a nun. When I was a child, I was spending summer break in the monastery. Surroundings were beautiful. It was in the country, there was beautiful lake nearby and monastery itself was also very beautiful..." she suddenly stopped. She turned almost blue.
"Lillian, are you ok? Lilly, hun please. Look at me." Per freaked out. She looked like she was going to faint again like that time two weeks ago. He got up on his feet, bent down and picked her up. "Babe, don't faint, please. Tell me what's going on." He asked while carring her back into the Church. After few seconds Lillian came back to normal. At least color of her skin.
"Per, it's ok. You can put me down. Please." She said. He looked at her, she did looked better.
"Are you sure? Babe, you just finished your pills and I don't want that happen again." He wasn't still sure he can put her down.
"I'm fine, it's just...memories." She finished sentence with a bit of tremble in her voice. He heard that breaking note when she was saying it, but she really seemed ok now.
"Fine, do you want to come back?" Per asked.
"No, please. Let's walk a bit more. I love that forest. It feels very peaceful and connecting with nature, don't you think?" She looked up on the top of the trees, very old pines and blue sky. Per looked at her, she looked like she was absorbing energy from that place. He couldn't take off his eyes of her. He remembered the first time when he saw her like that two weeks before. Saint in Unholy place and yet she was glowing here.
"Yeah, I know. That's why I love to come back here after the tours. I love tours, but at some point, you're drained from essentials and dream about sinking into this silence and touch of the grass..." He said quietly knowing that she'll understand. He never told anyone about that. He never really talked about any of his feelings. Didn't feel that need to share it. Always been the one who pranked others, joking around, party hard and in other occasions, being harsh or didn't bother to anything at best.

They were walking for another hour and talking, mostly about being close to nature. It was pretty late when they decided it's time to go back. As soon as they came into the Church, they bumped into Phantom.
"Och, good that I see you guys." He said. "Cardi wants to talk with us in the living room."
"Ok, but like now, or we'll have time to change?" Lillian asked
"No no, easy. Go change and we'll meet there." Phantom said
They got back to Sodo's room and got change quickly. These days most of the time they have spent in Sodo's room. Meanwhile it turned out that Lillian had most of her things already in his room. Within' next 10 minutes they were in the living room waiting for Cardi. Sodo was sitting in the armchair beside fireplace, which he liked so much, with ShadowMoon on his lap with her face buried in his hair. She adored his hair, always smelled like daisies. Cardi showed up few minutes later.
"We're all here?" He started. Sodo and ShadowMoon got up from thier place. "Och, we're all, good." He took a little break.
"I called you all here because we have a matter to discuss. I was planning another tour. Not a big one. Small, european tour just for a month. What do you guys think?"
They all looked excited. Except for Sodo, who was looking worry and pinned his eyes into ShadowMoon. He whispered into her ear:
"I'm not sure that's a good idea with you still recovering."
ShadowMoon turned her head and looked him in the eyes.
"I want to do this. It's what I was hired for. I feel great. And we're not gonna leave tomrrow. I'm looking forward to this. Please, let me do this, love." She answered with spark in her eyes. He saw something like that in her eyes before. When she saw for the first time practice room. How strong and brave she was...
"Yeah. Don't book seperate room for ShadowMoon, she's staying with me." Sodo said still looking in her eyes.
Cardi laughed:
"Like I planned otherwise." "Everyone started to laugh.
"It's a thing worth of celebrating and proper party!" Swiss yelled.
Damn, why he  always has to be the loudest one.