I am the Fire

Chapter 22

She jumped a bit hearing Per's loud, angry voice. Turned to him with a hint of suprise in her expression. He approached her and catch her both arms, maybe with too much force.
"Wh...what's going on? Why are you so angry?" Lillian asked with shade of fear in her eyes.
"What's going on? I woke up, I coulndn't find you anywhere. What do you think crossed my mind when you were nowhere to find?" He asked closing his face into hers.
"Ok, first of all, you called and I told you I'm here. Second, that hurts. Let me go, Per. Now." Lillian was frightened but she couldn't let him took advantage of it. He snapped out of it. Looked at his hands and let her go immediatly.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to...are you ok?" He asked
"Seriously? You're coming here, yelling at me, gripping your hands on me and asking am I ok? What's wrong with you?" She said looking at him with cold eyes.
"I...I'm sorry. I freaked out that something might happen to you." She was still looking at him coldly. "It's that Fire Ghoul thing..." Per added with excuse in his voice.
"Per Eriksson, it was the last time when you did something like that." Lillian said and looked at him less cold. "You were still sleeping and I just needed to breath this fresh air." She explained and calmed a bit.
"Yeah...I was just afriad that something bad happened to you. Can't blame me for that." He said
"True. And I don't. Just for the way you expressed your worries." She laughed.
They stayed there for few minutes until loud sounds of Pers empty stomach started to disturbing their moment. Lillian laughed.
"Well, it's time to go back. Someone's hungry and unsatisfied."
"Yeah, I'm starving. I could eat a horse." He replied. But word 'unsatisfied' woke up something else in him. Again. It must wait. He got up and helped Lillian. They headed into the Church for breakfast.
Later that day, they were laying in Per's room laizly reading something when Lillian asked:
"You wanted ask me something yesterday at the party, but you said it's not place and time. What was it?"
"Och, yes." Per lifted his head. "I was just wondering. How come that girl with such strong christian roots is so much...let me put it right...soooo far away from the church?"
With that Lillian stopped breathing for a second. Just for a second.
"Och you know...if you're forced to something you'll more likely hate it than love it." She tried to cut it
"True. But children are not fond of going to masses and christian parents often make them to go. It dosen't mean they'll end up, let's say, on the other side of it." Per now was more than curious.
"Let's just say that I discovered at very young age that those who pray the most, are probably those most evil ones. And leave it with that. Can you?" She said and left in hurry.
ShadwoMoon's pOV:
I must leave. Quickly. Now. I left the room and looked around where to go. I was breathing way too fast and breaths were so damn shallow. It was panick attack. I know this feeling too well. I have to find a place to hide. I was looking around in fever to hideout praying that Per would not come after me. I looked at door into my room. I walked in and locked it. Went into the bathroom heavy breathing with whatever got into my lungs. For Satan's sake, why I even opened that box with those memories again? Fuck...it's not good. I have to try to get into the shower. Damn it...I can't breath. Blackness.
Sodo's POV:
What the fuck just happened? She ran out like something was trying to get her? What did I just started? Again. I have to catch her. I walked out and looked both sides of the corridor. It's empty. Of course it is. I should've waited longer. Her doors were just in front of me. I knocked. Nothing. Knocked again. Still silence. Something was telling me that I should hurry. I grabbed a handle but it was locked. She never locked her doors before. I started punching into her doors. Others heard the noise and walked out to see what's going on.
"What are you doing? Are you ok?" Rain asked as he was the first to peek out of his room.
"I don't know. Lil...ShadowMoon's there and she locked the door and she dosen't answer." I said freaking out. At that point everyone were at the corridor.
"I'll ran to Cardi for a spare key." Swiss said and disappeard.
"There's no time for that." I said and forced the doors. Fuck. Those wooden doors are way to good.
"Wait. Let's try again together." Phantom said
With the two of us, we managed to brake them. I looked in panick around the room, she wasn't there. But doors to her bathroom were slidly open. I rushed there just to find Lillian unconsiouns on the floor.
"I found her!" I yelled and picked her up carring her into her bed.
"What happened?" Cardi asked trying catch his breath with spare key in his hand
"Sorry, I couldn't wait for you." I said without remorse. "You can charge me on that."

"Don't bother bout that now" Cardi said. "What happened?"
"It's probably my fault." I said "It seems that I asked a question I shouldn't have. It seemed to be normal question but somehow it was sensitive in some way." I answered shortly and focused on Lilly and trying to bring her back. She was breathing, short and shallow breaths but she did. That was a moment when girls stepped up.
"Sodo, please, let us help." Cirrus said. "Sunny go get some cold water in a bowl and a towel." She said. I let them take care of her. I knew that I can trust them with that.
"Dew, we need to talk" Cardi said and pointed at the door.
I got up from her bed and walked out with him. I know that talk will include my little investigation but it's last of my worries now.