Y/N didn't realize that being an exchange student in South Korea will help her make incredible memories with her little group of friends.
She definitely didn't plan on falling in love with the mysterious and arrogant pianist who seems to have an int...
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I didn't want to raise any vulnerable hopes in me. I didn't want to make the mistake of falling into the mindset that if Yoongi calls and wants to see me almost daily, he'll want to date me.
I am so into him that the thought of being rejected terrifies me. It wasn't about the whole "I'm a high value woman and the man needs to chase me". It was nothing like that. It definitely isn't just the guy's role to be a pursuer, girls can pursue too. It's about my anxious feelings about how he's going to react. What if he wants me to be just a friend? Sure he was flirting with me but maybe he just likes to tease me. He did admit that he likes me, but what's the point in investing time and energy in a relationship that's going to end so soon. I'll be moving back to Sweden in less than a year. Yoongi does have a lot of girls' attention. He can easily start a relationship with one of the girls on campus. But if the rumors are true he's not into long term relationships. He's known as that type of bad guy who is quick to end the relationship even though it just started.
I guess he's really interested in having a chase. Maybe that's why he's not willing to verbally express himself when it comes to the nature of our relationship. The trouble with me it's that I need to put labels on things. Most people would shrug it off and maybe even say it's not a big deal. Life it's too short for labels, some people would say. Some would say that there's no need to put labels in a relationship. "It doesn't mean that you don't have it if you refuse to label it. " But for me it's really hard to look at it from this perspective. It can be one of my biggest flaws, but I need labeling. This helps me to get a better understanding and explanation of the situation. Things bug me if I don't fully understand them. But in this scenario with Yoongi what really bothers me it's not that we didn't put a label on our relationship, it's the fact that I'm not even upset with him for not wanting to put a label on us. It's the first time in my life when I'm focusing on how he makes me feel when I'm with him. And even though all my senses are telling me he's a big trouble, I'm ecstatic when I'm with him. It's like a magnetic force that I can't control. And the more I try to control it, the more it pulls me in.
So the first thing I did the next morning was to call Yoongi. I admit that even though I was excited to see him, there was something poignant about the fact that I like a guy who's living across the globe. I may be right now here in Korea, making incredible memories with him, but soon I'll be in Sweden with a broken heart. So maybe that's why he doesn't want to date me. He seemed very happy while on the phone. I knew that he hates to wake up early, so I was taken aback by the fact that he was awake so early in the morning when I called.
He said that he'll come and take me to a coffee shop in the city. On the way there he admitted that even though his stomach hurts like hell afterwards, he still drinks his favorite beverage first thing in the morning.
His love for coffee it's strong and his favorite it's iced americano. I loved to discover these sweet details of him. Almost as much as I loved to study his body language. He likes to get attention, but at the same time when he's in the spotlight, he is touching the back of his neck and shrugs his shoulders downwards. Almost like wanting to become smaller and get away from the limelight.
