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Ever since your last kiss with Floch, the two of you shared a couple of more kisses throughout the following days. It was never anything that you initiated, he would do it unexpectedly leaving you unable to react. You covered your face with your hands furrowing at the thought of it. It wasn't that it made you cringe, it wasn't that it felt wrong, but it did not feel right either. You weren't complaining, you just felt weird and you knew that if you complained to Sasha about it, she would laugh at you for overreacting over a simple kiss. She wouldn't understand, knowing her promiscuous state, she would find anything simple.
However, you've hated being alone recently so you found yourself spending a lot of your time with him since the thought of being back in hell in which you called home overwhelmed you. Even though he wasn't home most days, either at the gym or at frat parties which shocked you because how many frat parties could one go to? You liked to just stay in his room and wait for him to come. You understood that he was the head of his fraternity or whichever they would call it so you weren't bothered.
Finally getting up from his king sized bed, you walked into his ensuite bathroom since you felt the need to pee. After you finished, you stared at yourself through his glossy mirror tidying your hair slightly as it became slightly frizzy from laying your head on his pillow. You needed to fix your appearance since you had an afternoon seminar. You smacked your teeth slightly knowing that you were going to see Armin for the first time since his game night. Just the thought of it gave you so much anxiety. You knew that he was going to try to speak to you and you wanted to ignore him in all possible ways. You sighed loudly, biting your lower lip as you went back into Floch's room rummaging through your duffel bag to get that Xanax pill that you were now no co-dependant on.
Thankfully, with just a swallow, all your sadness, anxiety and overthinking faded away allowing you to relax. You liked the feeling of not being drowned in your own thoughts fighting just to get out. It gave you company when no one was around you to comfort you. It gave you a peace of mind and most importantly, it made you forget about the people your mind would keep trailing on for so long.
Armin for instance.
Grabbing your blue Stanley Cup you swallowed some water quenching your thirst as you let out another sigh, your anxiety faded away. You hated that you've become so co-dependant on a simple pill. But it made you feel better about yourself so was there any point in complaining or feeling bad? You thought to yourself.
Picking up your phone, you decided to play No Chill by PARTYNEXTDOOR putting the volume up to 100, you grabbed your make-up bag and your phone heading towards Floch's bathroom again, you wanted to do a light no-makeup look before your class started. Applying some foundation under your eye and on the bridge of your nose, you decided to let it set before you began tracing your eyebrows with a brow pencil.
The sound of the door opened as you just about finished doing your make-up. Placing your items back into the duffel bag, you unplugged your MacBook and grabbed your charger placing them inside before zipping your duffel bag close.
