perfect sokeefe

the love diary

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♡⇐ Ｓｏｋｅｅｆｅ Ｌｏｖｅ ⇒♡

14, January

i love sophie foster. 
i'm not going to try to hide it. 
emotions are worse bottled up. 
and I learned that the hard way. 

1, February

i spent the whole day with foster today.
every second, i could fell myself falling.

4, February

i wanted to tell sophie I love her so much.
we lost mr. forkle today. she lost mr. forkle today.
i can't imagine what she's going through right now. 
i want to tell her that I'll always be there.
that I'll never leave her.
but my mouth is sealed shut. for how long, I'm still unsure.

10 February 

i saw sophie with fitz today.
i hope she's happy.
she deserves that.
i hope one day, I deserve it too. 

28, February

elwin told me i'm going to die in three years.

1, March

yesterday was a blur. 
i tried to distract myself, but the only thing I can think of is the choice I have to make.
either to be happy for three years with foster, only to leave her a wrecked mess, or to drag myself through the years and die knowing I've given up on the dream that had kept me drunk through reality. 

4, March

i've made my decision.

27, March

days are going quicker, probably because I'm so busy missing Foster by my side. 

4, April

foster's smile is so beautiful.
it was just today I realized how rarely she smiled.
but it was beautiful. she is beautiful.
the most beautiful elf I've ever set my eyes upon. 
till the day I die. 

14, April

i nearly kissed sophie today.
until mr. forkle (the other one) interrupted. 
i was annoyed. then realized he had done me a favor.

22, April

i wrote sophie a love letter today.
though i was tempted to throw it in the river, I restrained myself.
it's on white paper, with a stamp from the Lost Cities.
i hope it reminds her of her life before this all. 

26, April

her smile.
her lips.
her red cheeks.
her eyes.
her voice.
her mind.
her face.
oh, how i love her. 

1, May

atlantis nearly drowned in water today.
i nearly drowned in my love for foster today.