In My Veins - Andrew Belle
We all sat in the living room. Ranboo had just explained his side of the story and I wanted to run to Asterin and tell her but he specifically said not to and I couldn't betray him. Plus, she wouldn't believe me anyway and if I say Ranboo told me directly, she'd probably go off on me.
"Why was it so messy?" Tommy asked, his head leaned back on the couch as he stared at the ceiling. "Why doesn't she know?"
"I didn't have it in myself to go with grace. She would have left me either or so I did what I thought was best at the time. I regret it, god I regret everything." he said, tears slipping down his face. I was too in my head to really feel much of anything. Izzy was crying into my shoulder and I just knew what Asterin was doing right now, how she was coping. That's what Izzy knew too. We shared a look, we both broke after.
"So do you go home after this? Do you stay here? Do you go back to streaming? Like you're talking to us now which is the first in like a month and a half, but what now?' Jack asked, looking at him. Tubbo was silent next to me. I knew he was thinking, I knew he was wondering how to fix it. But we can't fix this, how could we?
"I can't go home. She was my home, she is my home." His phone buzzed and I could see his heart break. Izzy's and mine buzzed too, but neither of us moved.
"I miss her." Izzy whispered.
"Yeah, me too." Ranboo whispered.
"Pizza's here!" Will yelled. He'd been upstairs with Phil and Kristen literally this entire time. He ran down the stairs and paused as he saw everyone's individual state in the living room.
"Why dont we leave Tommy and Ranboo to talk." Izzy said, standing up and pulling me with her. Everyone agreed, but Tubbo stayed. I figured he would.
"What's that all about?' Will asked, pulling Izzy into his side.
"Ranboo's explaining his side." She whispered, leaning into him.
"Ah, alright." Will said, gently ruffling her hair. She moved to sit on the counter and leaned her head on Jack's shoulder. Will grabbed the pizza's and I sat next to her on the counter.
"Murder's illegal right?' Izzy asked. I laughed softly, knowing what she's feeling.
"Yes, darling, murder is illegal." Will responded with a small laugh. He was just as amused as I was and I smiled at him, he smiled back.
"So what's the plan for tonight?' Toby asked, walking in and standing between my legs.
"Film?" Tommy asked, walking in with Ranboo behind him.
"Yeah, I like that idea." Ranboo said with a soft smile. Tommy nodded and patted his shoulder softly before getting himself and Izzy plates.
"I'm not really that hungry, Tom." Izzy whispered, declining the food.
"You eat and I'll eat with you. C'mon, we'll go in your room so we're alone." He whispered. I thanked him mentally for that. She nodded softly, and hopped off the counter, following him out of the kitchen.
I zoned out, staring at the spot Tommy and Izzy just walked out of the room from. I felt a few taps only knee and quickly jumped out of it. I looked at Toby who was holding a plate with a soft smile.
"Thank you." I smiled at him. he nodded and stood next to me. We both ate while everyone chatted.
"I'm glad you're my girlfriend." he whispered softly.
"I'm glad you're my boyfriend." I whispered back.
Soon enough, Izzy and Tommy came back out and we all sat down for a film. Will sat on the furthest end of the couch. Phil and Kristen next to him. Ranboo was on the floor, knocked out from his flight over and I presume the lack of sleep recently. Tommy and Izzy were on the other couch while Toby and I were next to Phil and Kristen.
When the movie ended, I went to Izzy's room with her. The boys were sleeping on the floor while me and Izzy took the bed and Phil and Kristen took over the spare room. The boys were fast asleep on the floor quickly but me and Izzy stayed up, just staring at the ceiling.
"She'll be okay, right? Like it makes sense now why she's ignoring us." Izzy asked quietly.
"She's not okay, Iz." I whispered back. I moved my head to lay above her shoulder. She moved her head to lay just above mine.
"I know." She whispered back. "I wish I didn't know that though. I wish she was just in a place with no service for the summer."
"Yeah, I get that. It also sucks knowing what she's doing to numb herself." I said softly.
"Yeah, yeah it does suck." Izzy agreed, "I just hope it doesn't stay like this forever."
"Yeah, agreed."
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