You can experience the greatest adventure, the most loving romance, the most heart-wrenching death, and most blood-curdling monsters and it feels so real in the moment. You feel all those feelings and go through the most amazing awakenings. Just to wake up.
And then there are the dreams you forget. The dreams that feel so memorable but as soon as you get out of bed you forget them.
Have I experienced things in real life that I forgot as soon as the credits began to roll? Did I find my soulmate? Save the world? Live a happy life, even for just a moment? Those events just a blip in time. You blink and it's already over; forgotten. Then you go about your life and come across that feeling of familiarity, deja vu. I hate that word. Reminds me of pasts I'd rather forget.
Sometimes I hope that I went through something I wish I could remember. Not everybody wants a factory reset. Not everybody wants to forget what might have been. Trapped with all their monsters forever. Until that moment happens again. Just for a blink of an eye, you're happy with the person you love, just to forget it the moment it ends.
Head blurry with confusion, "What if's", familiarity, and the comfort you feel only with that one song, that one smell, or taste, that one intonation on that one word.
Dreams are funny like that.
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Secrets ||Signed, Me||
RandomA place for me to document me processing my thoughts and feelings as they come out. Apologies 😔 TRIGGER WARNING -mention(s) of self harm, suicide (brief),disorderly eating, trauma, etc.
