Take a break, guilty
Say anything, guilty
Do anything, guilty
Feel guilty? Great! double guilty
Constantly feeling guilty for feeling guilty
Enjoy a book, guilty
Delete an app, guilty
Want to die, guilty
Want to live, guilty
Want to eat, guilty
Want to starve, guilty
Always saying I don't care, false. Putting on a front of being okay, never saying the full truth, never opening up. If I do I'll never see the sun again, Locked up in a mental ward.
Locked up with all these crippling emotions
"Don't get attached, I'll just disappoint you". The only thing I never waver on.
I deserved to lose her, not worth anyone's time
A monstrosity of a person
Treat me like shit, it's what I deserve.
YOU ARE READING
Secrets ||Signed, Me||
AcakA place for me to document me processing my thoughts and feelings as they come out. Apologies 😔 TRIGGER WARNING -mention(s) of self harm, suicide (brief),disorderly eating, trauma, etc.
