i realized that the weirdness is a lot like the feeling when your feet fall asleep and you can't feel yourself walking just your brain and not your feet.
i've heard other people explain it as derealization but that word makes it seem so sterile and scientific, like it's some condition or something.
i like calling it The Weirdness 'cause it represents the feelings behind the experience as best as i can in a name.
i don't like putting my entire being in labelling things or trying to explain things because i'm content in just sitting with that feeling and letting it morph and twist without focusing on trying to put it to words that make sense.
but sometimes it is like a weight is lifted off my shoulders when i put my feelings and experiences to words. it's kinda therapeutic just without the pressure of knowing you told someone your feelings but they still stay there. here, a few people know my feeling or even relate to them and my feelings are lighter. less intense.
of course, i'm still going to try therapy. if only to get some more coping skills or get a different perspective. but this is my most useful coping skill.
just brain dumping and posting it knowing that i don't know any of the people reading this so there isn't the possibility to let anyone down.
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Secrets ||Signed, Me||
RandomA place for me to document me processing my thoughts and feelings as they come out. Apologies 😔 TRIGGER WARNING -mention(s) of self harm, suicide (brief),disorderly eating, trauma, etc.
