I don't know this feeling
I hate not knowing this feeling
I hate not knowing how to describe it more than "my insides churning and my mental state desperately needing to puke"
I hate how painful it is when he reacts because of a misunderstanding
I hate how I can't go to the one person who can comfort me because I have to keep his secret
I hate how because of him I need to keep a fake smile on. keep pretending that I'm okay when I'm not
Overall I am better, my lows aren't usually as low and my highs aren't nearly as high, but now it's just pain. Just burning, scorching hot pain. But at the same time cold and isolating.
I hate this feeling.
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Secrets ||Signed, Me||
RandomA place for me to document me processing my thoughts and feelings as they come out. Apologies 😔 TRIGGER WARNING -mention(s) of self harm, suicide (brief),disorderly eating, trauma, etc.
