trying to be the perfect daughter you wanted.
trying to be the best older sibling.
trying to act like im okay.
trying to believe what you would tell us.
trying to make sense of these feelings.
trying to put a label to how fucked up my brain is.
trying to be that one kid in class who always had good notes.
trying to pretend like all the things you do hurt me.
trying to live.
trying to not get triggered.
trying to be someone im not.
trying to be a good human.
trying to explain myself for validation.
trying to not let myself implode.
trying to believe that it's worth staying alive another day.
trying to sleep.
trying to pretend that i actually recovered from my eating disorder.
trying to keep all your secrets.
trying to last a day without having a shutdown.
trying is hard.
YOU ARE READING
Secrets ||Signed, Me||
RandomA place for me to document me processing my thoughts and feelings as they come out. Apologies 😔 TRIGGER WARNING -mention(s) of self harm, suicide (brief),disorderly eating, trauma, etc.
