The broken oath of forever (Broken Series #1)

Chapter 37

Still

Months passed in a blink of an eye and I am just here, watching all the changes happened in front of me.

The twins changed wonderfully. In span of their three months in life, I just heard them say 'ma-ma' and 'mi-mi'. I knew it doesn't mean mommy, but I can't help it.

My tears just fell because I heard them talk and probably, those are the first word they spoke because I always told them that I am their mommy and they should call me 'mommy'.

"Why are you crying?" Faye asked when she arrived in my room and I am wiping my tears while watching my twins playing with the toys they can already grasp.

"They talked!" I happily announced and she frowned before she looked at the kids saying vowel letters like the usual.

"What? About science, astronomy, geology, botany or psychology?" I rolled my eyes at her question.

"Bumalik ka na lang ulit sa probinsya, na-realize kong wala kang maitutulong sa anak ko" inis na sabi ko at hinawakan ang kamay ng kambal ko.

"Hoy, umuwi nga ako para may katulong ka dyan sa dalawang bata na parang nagmana pa sayo ang ugali. They will be a beautiful mess just like their mother" she stated and put our snacks at the table before she lifted Aya up.

"Ma-ma-ma" Aya kept on bubbling while Faye is carrying her.

"Hindi ako ang mama mo, pero mas maganda ako sa kanya" sabi niya kay Aya at ngumiti naman ang anak ko. Really, in front of me?

"I just want to remind you that between the two of us, I am the prettiest and you are the loudest" I stated and tickled Aeros that made him smiled a little.

I never thought that seeing a baby's smile will make my heart melt this way.

"I'm the prettiest, right my beautiful niece?" I shook my head and we just let the time passed that we are taking care of the twins.

"Kailan pala sila bibinyagan? So, I won't plan any appointment that day" Faye asked while I am eating the snack she bought and she's watching nursery theme videos. The twins are sleeping though.

"Probably Christmas day or in our birthday. They're five months by that time already" I answered and she pouted before she looked at me.

"Is the father invited?" she asked and she grinned at me. "And oh! He's here kaya hindi ka lumalabas ng kwarto"

I rolled my eyes at her.

"Seriously, how long can you endure the fact that he's always watching the three of you from a far. He can't touch his twins because of you, he can't even be with them during those milestones that they already achieved. Are you going to stay this cruel to him? I can see that he deeply regrets what he did to you"

"It's a punishment for a reason" I sighed and I heard her sigh too.

"You're too cruel already, maybe because you haven't see how he much suffered from this punishment" she sadly pointed it out. And yes, for those months that passed I haven't see him at all.

It's because I wanted to give myself a time. A time to heal so I can face him without anger and a time to forgive him to genuinely accept him again.

Because I knew... I knew that behind all my anger from what he did to my life, I still have this feeling for him.

This feeling that I don't want to name yet because I want to fully accept it without thinking of what he did to me on the past.

"I will see him soon; I just need time to think more" I put down my glass and watched my twins while they are sleeping peacefully now.