Adventures of the Variants

Memories 🖤✨️

(CW: PTSD flashbacks of abuse; mild descriptions)

Luminix had never questioned ver existence cause, why would ve? Ve never had a reason to, one day, ve didn't exist, and the next day ve just popped out of nowhere in front of this weird, so-called lord? Luminix had shrugged it off and was deemed and had gotten the title as 'servant', no questions ask... just did what was told of ver.

There had been days where Luminix would black out and wake up, almost as if bathing had happened. It felt like as if almost like Luminix had been 'reset' in a way, but still never questioned any ulterior motives. However, Luminix couldn't shake the feeling that something was off about Lord Orbit.

Not to mention the lingering scars and dents.

One day, Luminix was chilling out in ver room, relaxing and reading at ver own volition, face buried deep into the book held in ver hands, when all of the sudden; Luminix got a massive migraine that caused ve to mark the book and close it. Luminix let out a small groan and clutched ver head as the migraine got worse.

"Goddamn it...." Luminix grunted out, feeling ver own star burning up within ve.

Luminix tried to control the star, but it only kept burning up ver core, ver own body glitching in and out; like it was some sort of TV and its systems refusing to work. Luminix had a hard time breathing when all of the sudden froze in place, eyes going completely white, and a blank expression across ver face. What the variant didn't expect was a series of flashbacks that flash across ver mind rapidly and then showed said flashbacks in a polaroid type manner; like showing pictures close to someone's face.

Luminix let out a sharp gasp.

Flashes of Orbit abusing the ever loving shit out of Luminix, physically and mentally; resting Luminix's memory back to square one so as not to let the 'servant' remember anything that had happened. As soon as the star quit burning up Luminix's core, ve were forced out of the traumatic events and went into panic mode; gripping ver rays and questioning ver existence.

A single tear ran down ver face.

How could they? How could ver own lord reset ver memories like that? Hurt ver? Degrade ver? Cause so much suffering to the point where ve didn't even know ver own name and had chosen own for verself?!

Luminix's expression turned grim, a harsh glare with a sour frown spread across ver face and teleported out of ver bedroom and to outside. Heavy panting ensued, and Luminix's eyes started to glow a bright white again and ve started to use ver own star's energy and power to create a faint outline of a tornado.

So much anger.

There is so much betrayal.

So much hatred.

Luminix couldn't take it anymore....

Luminix let out one loud and harsh scream, causing the tornado to become more visible and more violent in power; swirling around the distress animatroic in a capsule whirlwind of pain and fury. Luminix continued to let out all the anger, pain, and sadness on the environment around ver, unable to process anything else besides the lies ve were forced to live upon and were fed.

"LIES!!!! ALL FUCKING LIES!!!" Luminix's voice shriek with agony.

What else were based of lies? What else was a lie?! The friends ve made?! The family ve trusted?! Ver own existence?!

Luminix could barely see past ver anger, unable to notice that someone was yelling out to ver, trying to get through to Luminix. But, all that in succeeding in doing was just adding fuel to the fire that causes the tornado of Luminix's trauma to grow bigger and stronger. Ve couldn't believe that all those years that ve went through was basically just lies and living on some evil bastard's words and torment.

The tornado got stronger and more violent as more pent up rage grew inside of Luminix. Before any more collateral damage could be done to the world, strong arms wrapped around Luminix from behind, encasing the other in a tight hug. Luminix took in a sharp inhale, the tornado calming down a little bit as well as ve own emotions a bit, and then turning ver head to see who had their arms around ver.

Solaris

Luminix; in ver broken and fragile state, let out a small squeak from ver throat.

"Solaris?" Luminix looked up with teary eyes.
_____________________________________

Hours had passed by with Solaris talking with Luminix for the duration they had been together. Luminix has spilled out everything to Solaris; how all the things ve went through and how ve were just living a lie. Luminix had admitted that ve don't know what's real and what's fake anymore, to which Solaris had comforted the other to the best of their abilities.

"I... I think I need time to take this all in. I don't know how to process this and just..." Luminix stuttered, trying to put the things ve were saying into words.

"Hey... I get it. It's a lot to take in. If you ever need to vent or whatnot, my door's always open, Lumi." Solaris reassured.

Luminix paused for a bit before looking up and giving a small smile and nodded. Ve rubbed ver arm and sighed, looking up at the other with a shy smile and ran vet hands through ver rays. A few moments of silence passed by before Luminix broke said silence.

"Sol... I... I appreciate you being here... just being here with me says a lot about you. I don't know what would I do without you and the others. I honestly don't know why my own star would reveal the truth out of nowhere, but I'm glad it did. Still doesn't help that I've been living a lie... multiple lies..." Luminix muttered under ver breath.

Solaris placed a comforting hand on top of Luminix's and leaned forward with a small smile and tilted his head to the side a bit.

"First of all, it's better late than never. I'm sorry that you had to find out that way, but it's better late than never. I'll continue to do whatever it takes to support you and your needs after this whole ordeal. I'm sure the others would, too. Secondly, I don't want you to be thinking that this is your fault by taking time to yourself... yeah?" Solaris said.

Luminix nodded, confirming to the other that ve understood what they were implying. Another moment of silence passed by before Luminix lunged forward at Solaris to hug the other, catching the other off guard for a bit, but got a hug back... one that was warm and comforting. The two stayed there for what seemed like forever; to which neither of them minded.
______________________________________

Days passed by with Luminix being conflicted with ver own past, questioning ver own existence, life, memories, and anything else that would pop up randomly. During those days, Luminix would stare up at the ceiling of ver bedroom or just wander in the garden in ver own thoughts.

One day, Luminix leaned on ver bed and stared forward, pondering on ver own thoughts for a while before sighing and snapping out of ver own thoughts

Something finally clicked...

"It's ok..." Luminix whispered to verself, giving a little smile to verself as ve leaned back on ver bed.