Nadine

86. Tests

After the fireworks me and Tre go back to my room. We sit on the couch and I cuddle in beside him.

"So you kissed him and you feel guilty, that's why your eyes went dark?"

Thora yells up. "ARE YOU NAKED?"

"NO." I sit more right on the couch.

"SHOULD HAVE KNOWN. YOU'RE NEVER NAKED." I nod and start laughing. "JUST GO DIPAK SHE'S NOT NAKED."

I hear the painting slam and in walks Dipak after a few seconds.

He looks at us. "I just didn't want to walk in to anything. She is crazy." Dipak sits by me on the other side.

Me and Tre both nod.

Tre looks at me again. "So you kissed him and you feel guilty, that's why your eyes went dark?"

I nod. "Seems to be what everyone thinks... I just don't understand really. I didn't break any rules. I've seen Thora kiss a million people."

Tre smiles at me. "Thora kisses anyone. She has no connection to them. You like Tye. That's why you feel guilty. Not the kiss. You really like him."

I think about it for a second. "So, I'm supposed to only kiss people I don't like?"

They both start laughing.

"Why would I kiss someone I don't like? I wouldn't like that kiss at all. What would be the purpose of that?"

"That's a good thing sweetheart. You need an emotional attachment to enjoy something physical with someone. Which is why you made Tye chase you forever just to give him a kiss. Most girls will kiss or have sex with someone just because they wink at her. You're never going to be like that. You have to have the attachment before you can enjoy anything."

Tre looks at me. "That's the difference between you and Thora baby. She can enjoy kissing with some random man she meets. You can't do that. And now you have spent to much time with Tye and you care about him more than you should. That's why you feel guilty."

"IS ANYONE NAKED?" I bust out laughing. "I'M JUST TAKING THAT AS A NO. WE'RE COMING UP. DON'T BE NAKED." I keep laughing and the boys start laughing too.

Thora drags Tye up and they both sit in the chairs. "We were bored."

Dipak looks at Tye. "Yea he looks like he really wants to be here." Tye starts laughing and shaking his head. That makes Dipak and Tre both laugh.

Tre looks at Thora. "No more of that damn kissing list. It's to hard on her to get to know someone for long enough to let them kiss her. She just ends up a disaster."

"We have to have a kissing list Tre."

"No you don't."

Dipak looks at her. "Thora she's not you. She's not going to roam around kissing strangers. She's never going to like that. So she has to get to the know the guy first. No more kissing list. It will end up like a damn dating list for her. We're not going to do this over and over again."

I stand up. "THAT'S IT. I'M GOING TO GO KISS A STRANGER AND LIKE IT." I start for the door.

The boys bust out laughing. Dipak looks at me. "Go ahead sweetheart."

Thora jumps up and pulls me back to the couch. "There are no strangers on this island. You'll be out there all night looking."

I sit down. "WHEN WE GET HOME I WILL."

She nods. "We can go out and kiss strangers."

Tre rubs his eyes. "This is not going right Dipak."

Dipak looks at him. "She's not going to like kissing strangers. She'll kiss 1 and that'll be the end of that."