𝕤𝕦𝕣𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕤𝕖 𝕠𝕣 𝕞𝕚𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕝𝕖? [𝕙𝕪𝕦𝕟𝕝𝕚𝕩]

Chapter 19 ₊˚⊹ ♡

-- time skip to a whole ass week later --

"Ugh... I need help with Biology. I kept procrastinating and it's due today but I haven't done the analysis yet," Mei whines.

"You're so unorganized, Mei... Jang-Mi, can you help her?" I ask. Jang-Mi looks up from her phone and nods.

"Sure. Do you want to head up to the library--?" Jang-Mi starts, when suddenly a group of people appears in front of us, stopping Jang-Mi in her tracks.

Oh, it's Enhypen, Jisung, Jeongin and Seungmin...

"Uhh... who the--" Jang-Mi yelps but is cut off by a hug from Jeongin.

"I'm sorry," Jeongin mumbles in his baby voice. All the others also bow down in apology. Jang-Mi is taken aback at first but immediately forgives them.

"No no, it's alright. I can understand why you didn't want to help me when I was about to be beaten up. I hurt your friend. I regret it dearly... I'm also sorry," Jang-Mi chuckles, slightly hiding behind Mei. The rest of the group turns to me and pulls me into a hug.

"YAH!" I shriek. I'm squashed by everyone, as they all say sorry.

I swear to god, if I hear ONE more apology, I'm going go deaf.

I peel myself away from my friends and take a breath.

"Christ, that was agonizing... It's fine you guys. I forgive you," I heave. And just like that, everyone is sitting together once again... like nothing happened.

Yet, I felt rather empty, without a lover... It's not like I ever had one anyway...

I excuse myself, walking away from the cafeteria, my heart heavy. I run into Minho on the way.

"Oof-- sorry," I mumble.

"Felix?" he asks. I look up.

"Oh hey, Minho..." I whisper.

"You look... kinda distraught... look I know I haven't treated you nicely but... could we talk? I feel like there's something I need to tell you," Minho says. I nod.

"Sure, go ahead," I say.

"I love Jisung--"

"I know. Get to the point," I sigh.

"Oh... well... as you know, I had deeply hurt Jisung. Perhaps Jisung never told you this, but we had an argument a few years ago. He tried to approach me but I yelled at him," Minho explains, "And I said something that I regretted quite deeply. I really hate myself for telling him that."

"What was it?"

"As you know, Jisung lost his mother when she gave birth to him... that day, I told him his mother should have never given birth to a mistake like him. I didn't say that, it was actually one of my ex-friends who was a bully. At that time, I didn't know Jisung had lost his mother. When I found out, I tried to apologize but he blocked me off. After that, I turned cold. To everyone... I liked Jisung but I denied my feelings for him. I tried to hate him for it. When I finally realized how much I hurt him, it was too late... every day, I cried in my room, wanting to kill myself. I promised him... the first time I met him... I promised to protect him, love him, and stay by his side forever... I guess I'm not able to... after all I've done to him, I don't think I deserve any love from him," Minho says. I stare at him in pity.

"What?" a voice whispers from behind Minho. Minho turns around in an instant, his eyes widening in shock.

"You liked me?" Jisung mutters. Minho doesn't answer.

"You liked me so you hurt me? To get rid of your feelings?" Jisung mumbles. Minho looks down in guilt.

"Why would you...?" Jisung asks, "I don't get it..."

Jisung walks away, and I follow after him. He sits down on a bench, biting his lips.

I watch Jisung internally break down. I have always admired Jisung. I rarely see him cry... even if he's terribly hurt, he never shows it. I never thought of what lies behind the mask of emotions he carries. He was always so sassy and crack-headed, that nobody suspects what he hid. I sometimes see... things others don't see about Jisung. But I don't question it, knowing he wouldn't tell me anything. I wish... I really wish he would let go of his emotions. For once. I wish he wouldn't bottle it up. I wish he would just cry... Not everyone is strong. Even those who are the happiest, have the right to cry. Because it's alright... to cry.

Jisung looks at me. I only give him a soft smile.

Just give in. Stop holding those emotions. Don't do this...

And he finally let's go. I hug him tightly as he sobs on my shoulders.

-- time skip --

"Are you... Are you going to forgive Minho...?"

"Probably... I still hate him though," Jisung chuckles lightly "Let's finish this off."

I give Jisung a confused look so he grabs my hand and pulls me to the basketball courts.

"Minho! Outside now!" Jisung shouts at Minho who is practicing shooting with San. Minho looks surprised at first but immediately complies.

"I'm sorry Jisung--"

Jisung slaps Minho across the face.

"That's for hurting me."

He slaps him again.

"That's for denying and trying to get rid of your feelings for me."

And again.

"That's for being an asshole."

This time Jisung takes a step forward and clasps Minho's shirt. Before Minho could comprehend, Jisung pulled Minho towards him, smashing his lips onto Minho's. Minho's eyes widen in surprise before immediately kissing back. He tightly wraps his arms around Jisung, bringing Jisung closer to him, trapping Jisung's body.

I gag silently in revolt before Jisung finally pulls away.

"And that's... for liking me," Jisung says, gasping for air in between.

"God, please excuse my virgin eyes! I think I need to bleach them!" I exclaim in disgust.

"Stop overreacting Felix! It was just a kiss--"

"A very unholy one!!" I argue.

"Shut up!" Jisung groans.

"So does that mean I'm forgiven?" Minho whispers. Jisung turns to Minho and nods.

"Yeah... I guess--"

"Hurt him and you'll be facing Me, Jeongin, Sunoo, Jay, Niki, Sunghoon, Heeseung, Jungwon, and Jake. We'll fucking kill you," I growl. Minho looks taken aback but nods.

"That was unnecessary," Jisung sighs.

"Shut up, you dingleberry. I don't want him to break your heart. You've already been through enough," I snap. Jisung shakes his head in dismay. I watch as Minho hugs Jisung from behind, burrowing his head into Jisung's neck.

"I love you..." Minho whispers. Jisung giggles, and I observe Minho's heart melt when he hears Jisung giggle. I smile at the two of them. But with sad eyes.

And once again... my heart is heavy.