𝕤𝕦𝕣𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕤𝕖 𝕠𝕣 𝕞𝕚𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕝𝕖? [𝕙𝕪𝕦𝕟𝕝𝕚𝕩]

Chapter 30 ₊˚⊹ ♡

a/n: I'm back ya'll!!

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"Did you ever miss Australia?" Seungmin whispers to me. I'm taken aback by the question.

A heartache I forgot existed returned to me. The memories and loss came running back.

Of course, I missed Australia. I missed you. I missed basketball. I missed the childhood me. I left everything behind and started a life here. In Seoul. Sure, I loved the people I had met and started relationships with, but it was never the same. Everything here was... well... korean... it was unfamiliar and even as I got used to it, I missed my Aussie life. Australia was my everything. The friends I made weren't just my nationality. They were diverse.

I had, Enzo who was Japanese. Carl, who was Italian. Jeffrey who was Mexican. I know right? Mexican! Man, whenever I was invited to his house, his mother made incredible food. I had Rohan who was Indian. And I knew countless more. Unfortunately, I went to an all-boys school though so I never made a friend who was a girl. Even so, Australia is the only country I'll ever belong to with my true heart. As much as I love Seoul. Australia is still my home. And I'd give everything to get it back.

I want to tell him all of it.

"Want to know the truth? I want to go back. Back to my past. Mostly because I prefer the younger me better. Australia was my first home, Seungmin. It was and will always be. Korea will never replace the love I have for the country I grew up in. Korea may be my 'homeland' but I still belong to Australia. I never forgave myself when I left you and Enhypen. I love every single person I met here in Korea, yet I've never been able to forget Australia," I whisper, as a tear slips down my cheek.

"Oh..." Seungmin lets out. I can tell from his voice, there's a sense of relief and joy.

"How were Enzo, Carl, Jeffrey, and Rohan?" I ask.

"Rohan just texted me. He asked if I was gonna drag you back home along with me. But when I told him I was staying here, he seemed incredibly hurt and upset. The others too. They asked if we could go back to meet them just one more time. They want at least a day with you, Lix," Seungmin says.

"Then let's go," I say.

"Wait what?" Seungmin turns to me in surprise.

"They want to see me right? Let's go over to Australia and stay there for a week or so. I miss them too. And I never got the chance to go back there," I declare, "Or say goodbye."

I whisper the last part to myself so that Seungmin doesn't hear. But he must've if he turned to me with sorrowful eyes.

"It's okay, Lix. Just as long as they see you once again. They'll forgive you for leaving them," Seungmin shrugs. I smile at him, laying my head on his shoulder once more. In return, he leans his head on mine.

"Should we tell the others we'll be going to Australia for a little bit?" Seungmin asks.

"No, it's fine. Better if we don't. They might want to join and that's gonna be a hassle. Plus, I just want it to be us," I say.

"Won't they get hurt though?" Seungmin asks.

"They'll forgive eventually, right? It's fine," I mumble.

Suddenly we hear a shuffle of feet behind us. I turn around, a bit too quickly that my neck hurts. In shock, I find everyone staring at the two of us.

"How much of the conversation did they hear?" I ask Seungmin through my eyes.

"We heard everything," Hyunjin explains as if he read our minds. Seungmin glances at Hyunjin then back at mine, his lips tighten.

"Oh well," I sigh. Seungmin nonchalantly shrugs.

The morning is quiet as Chan decides to order something. No one is saying anything and there's a tight tension in the air. Maybe it's because we're all sleepy or because of what they heard. Either way, it's very awkward as me and Seungmin communicate through our eyes.

"Could you guys stop with the eye-telepathy, please? It's so freaking annoying. Go do that crap somewhere else," Jisung sighs, standing up in frustration, Minho following after him.

Me and Seungmin look away guiltily.

"I think you messed up," Chan mutters, sparing me a glance.

"What?" I whisper.

"We're hurt, Felix. We're your friends and you don't think it's important to let us know that you'll be going to Australia? Just because you don't want us to join? There shouldn't be that type of relationship. If we want to join and explore your so-called 'home', Australia, then why would it be a hassle for us to come along? Why can't we meet your old friends? Because they're more significant than us?" Jeongin snaps, walking away. Chan walks away as well. Hyunjin glares at Seungmin but ignores me completely and walks away with Chan. Changbin leaves after a few moments as well.

We sit in silence, Seungmin patting my back. Everyone continues to ignore us for a while, giving us the cold shoulder. I tried approaching them but they'd turn away, a hurtful look on their faces.

Around lunchtime, I'm sitting on the couch with Seungmin while the others laugh in the dining room. A few tears slip down my cheeks.

"I'm gonna go home," I whisper.

"I'll come with you," Seungmin replies.

"It's alright Minnie. I need some space. I didn't think my words would hurt them like this," I answer. I grab my phone and hoodie and step outside into the chilly wind before Seungmin can stop me.

I just need some space.