Wait, WHAT! (Lapidot human au)

Chapter 5: please

(Hehe another trigger warning ⚠️)

Before you read this I am really sorry If  I offend you during this book because I wrote smth wrong I promise it was not my intention

Peridot/pov

I woke up, it was still dark outside, and I didn't really know why I woke up until I realized that lapis was shaking again, and I could hear her crying and mumbling. I thought she was awake, but she wasn't her eyes were closed 'oh gosh she must be having a nightmare or something' I tried to shake her awake, but it wasn't working. We were still in the same position as the night before. I was going to try to wake her up again when I heard her gasp, and I was pushed off the bed "oww" I whispered while rubbing my butt from the pain 

"O-oh OH MY GOSH IM SO SORRY I- I" lapis pleaded with a shaking voice probably from the nightmare "ugh it's fine" I responded not realizing the state she was in right now "I- I didn't mean too i-it was an accident I'm so sorry please" she said while sounding more scared this time "it's fine, I'm okay" I was kinda confused on why she kept apologizing. I stood up and walked towards her to try to figure out what was wrong, but as I moved closer she jumped off the bed and ran to wall with her hands over her face "j-jasper I'm sorry please don't hurt me I didn't mean to please" jasper? Hurt her? I'm not jasper and I am most definitely not going to hurt her "L-Lapis I'm not going to hurt you" I said worried, but she wasn't listening to me it was like she was stuck in a dream or something, and then it hit me 'oh my gosh is she having like a flashback or something I didn't know she got those.' Lapis was still on the wall sobbing and begging for 'me' to stop. I was just staring at her "LAPIS IM NOT JASPER" I yelled, but that didn't help in fact I think I made it worse yelling might of made her really think jasper was there.

I still didn't know what to do, I rushed over to my phone and started typing "how do I help someone who is having traumatic flashbacks?" I put into the goggle search bar "1.try to stay calm" ok I failed step one "2. Gently tell them they are having a flashback" hmmm "3.avoid making any sudden moments" opps failed that one too "4. Encourage them to breath slowly and deeply" ok, but it's like she can't even hear me so how is that going to work "5.encourage them to describe there surroundings"   This might be harder than I thought....  (I totally didn't search this 🤫)

"Ok." I took a deep breath "here goes nothing" I told myself "lapis" she jumped a little at this "you need to calm down you're having a flashback, I mean I think." I started to panic again what if she isn't having a flashback and I'm stupid "n-no please" lapis said quietly while still crying "you not with jaspe-"  I was cut off but a loud sob, oops I guess I shouldn't say her name. "You're at home lapis nobody is going to hurt you" she didn't respond just kept crying. I slowly approached her, and grabbed her hand she flinched at this but didn't stop me. She was still crying and shaking, but I decided to ditch goggle and do this my way. I gently grabbed the hand the was covering her eye, and I saw the tears rushing down her face. She first looked at me terrified, but I just smiled a little bit. Her expression softened a little as she looked around the room taking her surroundings. 

Lapis/pov

I felt my hand be taken from my face I was terrified. I opened my eyes to see peridot? And she was smiling at me I looked around realizing I wasn't at jaspers I was in my dorm. I fell to the ground from pure exhaustion peridot came down with me though. I took a deep breath "w-what happened?" I asked while looking at peridot "tell me what you think happened" she replied with "w-well I woke up from a n-nightmare, and I felt something around me, and- and it scared me so I pushed It away, but then I was back at j-jaspers house and" I cut myself off, I started crying again I looked up at peridot with tears in my eyes "I'm so sorry you has to deal with me like this I" peridot cut me off "hey, you have nothing to apologize for, but your safe so let's just calm down for now, okay?" She said, it felt nice to have someone being so... nice to me. "O-okay" I responded while stopping crying.