Wait, WHAT! (Lapidot human au)

chapter 8: here goes nothing

peridots/pov 

oh man! I haven really had time to think about the kiss but now that I do... IT WAS GREAT!  'I hope maybe someday I can do it again' I thought but instantly stopped "no, no it was probably a mistake I mean who would want to kiss someone like me. I'm a huge nerd with one friend. I'm ugly, stupid, I have no social skills, and everyone in this school hates me' I was a little surprised by these thoughts, I hadn't had these in a few months and why was I having them now? I mean they're true, but why now just when life was getting better.

time skip to morning cuz lapis slept all night 

lapis/pov

I woke and saw I was laying on peridots lap, I sat up a little embarrassed and saw that peridot was already up. "good morning" she said with a week smile "morning" I mumbled through my sleepiness "how did you sleep" she asked with her smiling being more sincere "oh actually pretty good I didn't have any nightmares and I was really relaxed the whole night" I said remembering the sleep I had. I looked at her in the eyes she looked really tired "did you sleep okay? you look really tired" I asked. she looked a little scared to respond "oh um... I slept fine hehe" she responded. it sounds like she is lying but she doesn't have any reason too "well that's good. anyway do you have classes today?" I said changing the subject "oh yah I do but I'm not going I want to be here if something happens" she said smiling again. I was blushing, I WAS MAD BLUSHING. "o-oh t-thank y-you" I said stuttering from being absolutely stunned and kind of surprised. why would she want to miss classes just to be here? I'm pretty sure I can walk. oh wait I should probably cheek. I started to get up, but peridot grabbed on my hand causing my to flinch "let me help you" she said while smiling still. I relax a little and nod.

after peridot helped me to the bathroom I just stared at myself in the mirror 'god I'm a mess' I thought looking at my messy hair.  'I haven't showered since the "incident"' I flinched at the thought. 'I need help but I don't want to sound needy' 'ugh shut up lapis she literally stayed home for you!' "um peri?" I said through the bathroom door

peridot pov

peri? was that a nickname or something? "yeah?" I respond to lapis "can you um help me? I uh cant get to the shower hehe" she said. oh right she cant walk by herself "oh yah, can I come in?" I ask stupidly "yah" she responded stiffly. I was a little surprised she was asking for help. 

after I helped lapis get in the shower I sat down on my bed 'ugh what am I doing. I haven't missed a day of class in my whole life and now I suddenly don't care because of lapis?! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!' 

time skip to skip to Monday (it was Friday)

I skipped classes for the rest of the week but lapis convinced me to go because she could walk now. of course I made her promise to call me or text me if anything happened. 

I walked into class feeling all eyes on me. I had already finished any work on the computers but I had to get the paper stuff "ahh peridot there you are its been a while, I never knew you could miss class" the teacher said while laughing "hehe yeah, anyway is there anything I missed that wasn't on the computers?"

lapis/pov

its my first time being home alone since the incident. I'm not sure I like it but peridot needs an education. I think ill start going to classes tomorrow, I've been pretty okay since the incident I mean really. no nightmares, only one panic attack, and I've felt... safe and happy!  I haven't been happy in years, but suddenly peridot comes along and I'm happy again!  

I was trying not to think of peridot but she was the only thing I wanted to think about. while I was trying to think of other things I started to remember that we kissed 'OMG HOW DID I FORGET WE KISSED!!!!!!!!' I thought to myself. 

I don't know how it was possible to forget because all that was on my mind was the stupid picture, maybe I forgot what the picture was? idk.   

'that kiss was magical though I hope we can do it again. I hope she liked it too because I know I really enjoyed it. I haven't enjoyed a kiss since jasper was nice to me!' wait 'omg wait no no no! if crazy lace had a photo of me and peri kissing that means she knows peridot is a girl! SHE  GOING TO TELL JAPSER!!!!!' I was freaking out at this point. 

i took a few deep breaths trying to calm down. I didn't want to have a panic attack, so I decided to text peridot 

lapis: 'can you come back to the dorm...' 

peridot: 'I'm on my way'

I was still freaking out and trying to calm down but I couldn't handle this alone. 'if lacy tells jasper that my roommate is a girl she's going to make me drop out, and then ill never be able to live on my own and ill have to live with jasper forever.' this thought didn't help at all, in fact it made things worse. I could feel a knot in my throat beginning to form. ' if I have to move back in with jasper then I wont see peridot anymore and then the only person that cares about me will be gone and I cant do anything about it.' I almost started crying when suddenly the door swung open and peridot ran over to me.

"Lapis! what happened?!" she asked vary worried "I was thinking about the-" I stopped chocking on my own words "the p-picture and- and if Lacy had the photo then that means she knows your a girl!" I said "why cant Lacy know I'm a girl? she asked. my face instantly froze up, I forgot to tell peridot! "ummm- I sorta told jasper that your a boy..." I said shyly "you WHAT" she raised her voice just causing me to flinch, but she didn't apologize "I'm sorry! just if jasper knew that your a girl she would of made me switch rooms! and I know we didn't really talk back then but- I guess I just liked you or something." I said while blushing. peridot was blushing now too "wow thanks." she said in shock still "if it makes you feel any better I liked you back then too" peridot said still blushing but with a smile. I was now mad blushing, but I was definitely more relaxed, I took a deep breath "thank you, but still if crazy lace tells jasper then jasper is going to kill me on Wednesday" I said starting to freak out again  "yah your right, but well maybe you can break up with her over text right?" she asked like a crazy person "ARE YOU SERIOURS!!! I cant do that! she'll find me!!! I said starting to seriously panicking "well then let me call the cops! she needs to go to jail after everything she's done to you!" she said raising her voice again "well what if she gets away and comes for me, or what if she escapes jail and comes for me, and what if the cops don't believe me!?" I said on the verge of tears. 

peridot came over to me and pulled me into a hug. "we could stay here all day and make 'what ifs' or we could fix this dumb problem and get your life back" peridot said in a calm voice. I was still freaking out but she's right, I have had no joy in my life and this one decision could ether make that worse or make that 1000 times better. I took a deep breath "ok, lets call the police."

AN/ HOLLY CRAP THEY'RE GANNA DO IT!!!!!!!! finally going to call the police 😁 yay. anyway I'm probably only ganna update on weekends soooo mb anyway 1390 words

BYYYEEEEEEEEEE