"I'm in love with you"
"I don't feel the same"
"I- I know, I wanted to give you this" I give her the present I prepared for her.
"Happy Birthday" I'm trying to act brave, I cannot cry like a baby in front of her. She's in love with someone else. A few days back she asked me if she's insane to be obsessed with someone she never met, she only saw his pictures and talk to him over text.
That tore my heart, I felt like it wasn't the toughest thing to deal with, but it is. I don't know anymore if what I did was the right thing to do. What about me? What about someone who's constantly putting efforts to get the love of their life? I've been waiting for Yeji to notice me, to treat me the same.
We've flirted a lot in school, it was all fun untill I found myself constantly thinking about her, waiting for her text. I would sleep at 9, I couldn't stay awake till midnight, but then I noticed her schedule, she would always be online at night.
My eyes would itch untill water starts pouring from them due to lack of sleep, I would be really tired the next day because I couldn't sleep properly. I wake up at 4 to study for my finals.
I knew she was really chill and out going about such a topic, but she goes silent when she has to communicate and make decisions. Communication is not her thing, but overthinking is my thing.
We took admission in the same University, same class, same course. Everything was going fine untill dad had to move states, he wanted us to go with him. But my brother couldn't. He has his university here, and it's very important to him, he cannot transfer elsewhere. Because he's studying law. I cried for two consecutive weeks, thinking I'll not be able to see her any soon.
She was sad too, that was the time when I told her that she means a lot to me, she probably got the hint. At the last day being there, she cried. I saw a small tear drop threatening to fall but she held it back.
I thought I too meant something to her. Life after that was miserable, she was all that I could think about. And just two days in a different city made me realise I love her too much to let this happen to us. Funny, there was no us.
I begged dad to let me go back, my admission was withdrawn from the university I was in, and it's not easy to get admission back there and what's harder is withdrawing my admission from this new University. It was merely possible for me to go back, but my brother helped me.
He convinced dad that he'll take care of me and that I'll also be of help with cooking and stuff. After so much convincing, dad let me go back. I did not tell Yeji that I was gonna go back, but she would everyday text me and tell me how much she missed me.
How bad University is without me, I thought she felt something for me too, she never expressed anything like that before. But I couldn't get my hopes high, I could only text her that I missed her too.
And when I was at the university, waiting so nervously, I didn't knew how she would react. But I was more excited than anything. I put my hoodie on and put my head down on the bench. Where I used to sit. After few minutes I hear Yeji, she's talking with someone as she makes her way to her seat. "Uhm, excuse me. That's my seat" I did not look at her and murmured. "It's a seat for two, we can share"
