YEJI
I can't believe how beautiful she looks, climbing the stairs in that gown, her shoulders at right angle and her off shoulder dress makes her look so much prettier. Her hair falling on her back. I stood there, looking at her, watching her in awe.
I straightened my back, fixing my suit. Looking at my outfit, I'm reminded that I'm merely her bodyguard . There were moments were she would ask me to zip up her dress, like how I did today. I wish I could even take it off.
I confessed my feelings to her, I'm nyt crazy. I know it sounds like that. But I know I'm not someone she would want to be with. I don't match her standards, she's the princess, and now, our queen.
It's her throne ceremony, she looks like an angel up there. I was drunk when I dragged into her room, no one is allowed there. And I would have been hired if someone saw me like that. I screamed my love for her, and she had to shut me up. And that night, I slept in her bed. Smelling her scent.
I don't regret telling her how I feel, because she haven't told anyone about it, and neither did she bring that up again. It was t that long back, it was just last week when this happened. Now that she's the queen, I can see everyone being jealous of her.
And all the men present in the room wants her, I can tell that my looking at them. She's giving her speech, and I just look at how her eyes move, from one person to another and how they finally land on me.
I smiled at her, forgetting my duties as her bodyguard and that I have to maintain an aura. And I seriously don't care about the men eying her, because she's not into men.
I've known this for a long time, she was fourteen, while I was eighteen and doing my training as her bodyguard. She came to me one day crying and telling me how much she liked a girl from the neighborhood, but they no longer lived there.
But now that she's more sensible and stable, I don't know if she still looks at herself the same, maybe she still likes girls. Or is she looking for a man?
"And, for concluding this, I would like to add, I've been thinking about a particular someone for a few months, that person makes me want to write love letters, and do all the things a wife does for her man. And by this, I mean that there is no chance for anyone else. Because I'm sure, we're going to end up together. So for all of those who have hopes in their eyes, I'm sorry to disappoint you. But I'm already in love with someone"
I hung my head low. It felt like she's saying that to me, that I shouldn't have hopes, and that she likes someone already. I know where I stand, but we've been friends for a while, or were we? I don't know what she feels. But I cannot see her with anyone else.
She looked at me while saying that, and I felt every word that she spoke. I shouldn't like her, I cannot be in love with her. I'm just a guard, and she's the queen now.
While she was walking down the stairs, I walked behind her, that's my duty after all. I walked with her till the table, she smiled at me. I smiled back, I guess she needs closure because it's a big day for her.
It was a long day, after attending all the guests, the queen was in her room. While I stood outside her door with another guard. The door opened just a little and her head sneaked out of the door. "Yeji, in now" I pushed the door further and walked in.
