Mon Chéri

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Nyx

"You call me if your struggling okay?" Laura asks as we stand at the exit. I nod "I will". "And remember to speak about your feelings and thoughts. Bottling up will just bring you back to how you were when you came here" She tells me. I look at her as I smile "Dont worry..I'm not gonna slit my wrists again. That shit hurt".

Today was my last day. Its now 5pm and Morticia should be on her way. I haven't spoken to her since that phone call. I didn't really speak to anyone since then except laura. As far as I know Tish didn't come to any of my visits. I didn't sit at any because I couldn't handle the pain of knowing she's given up on me again.

A black car pulls up and I hold onto my suitcase handle. My face stays straight as my wife steps out the back. She looks stressed and although she has tried to hide it I can tell she's tired. She looks up and down at my pale and thin body and sighs.

I turn to Laura and I hug her "thankyou for helping me through this". "Its no problem. I enjoyed your company" she tells me. I smile softly at her before walking over to the car. I walk straight past Morticia and I put my bag in the trunk. I climb into the back of the car and I sit silently.

I watch through the window as Morticia talks to Laura most likely about me. They both look towards the car and I quickly look away. "Its nice to see you again ma'am" Hector our driver says making me look towards him. Hector drove us to our wedding and drives us to any family gatherings or important events.

I smile at him "Thank you Hector. And call me Nyx...ive told you before". He nods at me "Your daughter misses you alot. Your all she talks about whilst I drive her to and from nursery". I frown "Tish doesn't take her anymore?". He shakes his head "No she has been busier with work and moving your things to your house".

As I'm about to question him more the door opens and Morticia gets in. I give Hector a small smile again before turning to look out the window. I feel her hand resting on my thigh and I move my leg away from her. "My love dont be like that-" she says making me look at her.

"Dont be-..you fucking left me in that place to go mad. I gave you the benefit of the doubt since I needed help. But you ignored the hospitals call telling you i wanted to see you and didn't turn up. Then you tell Laura you have given up on me!" I shout at her.

"I didnt-..Nyx I tried. I tried to see you for the first few weeks. But you refused...so I focused my energy on something useful like work and our daughter" she shouts back at me. I look down with tears in my eyes as I mutter "you still could have came to see me when I asked".

After half an hour of silence we pull up to a house. I frown as I stare at it "Tish I want to go home". "This is home..I moved us here whilst you were gone" she tells me. I feel myself starting to grow more angry "Whilst I was gone? I was in a fucking mental hospital not on a fucking holiday. You didn't even think to consult me on this".

"Your language has gotten worse" she says casually making me want to slap her. "Take me home" I demand. She looks at me before getting out of the car. I watch as Hector gets out the car to get my bag and a few boxes out of the trunk. I stay sat in the car as I play with my necklace.

My door flies open and I'm pulled out of the car. I squeal as I'm picked up and I wrap my arms and legs around Tish. "Tish! Put me down. I want to go home!" I shout at her. She takes me inside of the house and sits me on a sofa. Her arms block me in and she looks at me with tears in her eyes.

"Love..I know this is all a big change but this is our home. It has a big garden for Raven to play in and a huge room. It has all the things we wanted in our future home. So would you just...stop fighting me" she says in a shakey voice. I look at her as I cup her face in my hands "i made you cry..I'm so sorry honey".

Tish stands up straight and takes her heels off. I watch as she moves me to lay on the sofa and lays ontop of me. Her lips press gently against my neck as I feel her tears on me. I pull her closer to me as I start to cry myself.

After an hour of us crying we finally stop. Morticia sits up and moves me to sit on her lap. "I've asked Wednesday to have Raven tonight so you can settle into the new house" she tells me whilst using her nail to tuck my hair behind my ears. I nod and I look down at my hands.

My eyes go straight to the scars on my wrists making me feel a pain in them. I feel Tish's lips against my neck and I hum. The feeling distracts me from my wrists and I put a hand on the back of her head. Her lips travel further down my chest leaving hickeys making me let out a shakey sigh.

There's a knock at the door and the door opens as Tish is unbuttoning my shirt. I look towards it and I spot larissa stood staring at us holding a bottle of wine. "Oh!" She gasps when she sees us. I climb off Morticia's lap and I look down to fix my buttons.

"Rissa I forgot you were coming" Tish says as she gets up to hug the taller woman. I groan as I notice im missing a few buttons "Tish! I liked this dress.". She turns to me and grins "well now I like it even better". I slap her arm before smiling at Larissa.

I hug her before taking the wine from her "thankyou. I've needed a drink.". I smile at the two women before walking out to find the kitchen. I stop walking when I walk past a room with a few boxes in. I walk in and I look in the boxes. My heart drops when I spot baby things and baby clothes that were meant to be for Corbyn.

I sit down on the floor and I take out a onesie. I take the Cork out of the wine bottle and I start drinking from it as I stare at the onesie. After a few minutes I start to cry. I flinch as I throw the wine bottle at a wall and it smashes. "Love..what was that?!" I hear Morticia asks as her heels click along the floorboards.

She gets to the doorway and her eyes soften as she spots me. "I miss him" I sob out. Tish rushes to my side and pulls me into a hug "i know mon cheri..". I feel my chest starting to tighten as I start to n cry more. "I can't do this tish..I can't.." I sob out gripping onto Morticias waist.

I feel Morticia's hand in my hair and she pulls my head to face her. "No..i'm not letting you leave me again. We can get you through this.." she says before pecking my lips. I feel my eyes starting to shut as I calm down. Tish moves me to lay between her legs and I rest my head on her chest. I keep Corbyn's onesie on my hand as I fall asleep.