The One I Was Waiting For.

Date or not?

I am disturbed! Well like it's obvious!
My best friend's boyfriend is my ex boyfriend whom I haven't even seen and ain't even sure he is the same or not.
What a situation God has put me into!
Shiyona asks me million times why I am spacing out every second in the break. But I just tell her I am thinking about Dave...which is kinda true too...
But I don't get it.
How can Emmett be Dave?
What is his real name from both of these?
And why the hell was he doing this?

But if its really him, so I will back out. Shee finally got the guy she fell in love with last Christmas. I cannot snatch her happiness away.
Besides, she met him first.

But I hate to admit, I will be badly hurt. Even I am hurt.
How can he ask her out?

But...I didn't feel the butterflies I usually feel when I am with him. I didn't find him attractive enough. I even don't feel that way by looking at him. But no doubt he is handsome.
But just not the same I fell in love with.
Dave was different. He was just Dave.

When school ends, I, without meeting Shiyona or Mate walk to the parking and ask Mike to drive fast and take me home asap!
And he follows. I am home in a few minutes. I appreciate the poor man.
I hold my head and run inside. I am thinking too much that it will just explode.
No one is at home except our bunch of servants. I go straight to my room, closing the door behind me, throwing my vans, bag and colliding in my bed.
I close my eyes and tears roll down my cheeks.

My first love story and its happening like this.
Like really, God has some personal issues with me.

You know that's why I never wanted anyone to come close.

"Well look who's sick here!" A familiar voice says from behind.

"Go away Rob!" I icily say.

"Why? I can't see a girl crying, you know." I feel him sitting near me and caressing my hand which is in my hair.

I keep quiet and sob quietly.
But then stop crying. I don't like someone watching me cry like that.
I am strong enough.

I sit and rub my palms on my face to relax myself.

"What do you want?" I ask him; not really interested.

"I want you to share..." He says; that guy with smirks is gone; that guy with devilish smile is gone.
And sitting here is a caring guy who has concern in his eyes and affection in his smile.
I can't help but love him for that. I have treated him so badly but still he is by my side.

"I don't want to say anything Rob...and besides I don't think you will understand. Love is painful." I say looking down smiling weakly.

"You think I haven't fallen in love before?" He asks.
And I look up immediately widening my eyes.

"You have?" I softly ask.

He just smiles and looks another side.
I think that means a yes.

"I am sorry for judging like that. I am so stupid..." I say mentally slapping myself.

I am a dumb girl.

But only I have a right to call myself that!

"I don't know if it was love...or addiction. But I killed her boyfriend in the process."
And as these words leave his mouth, my mouth hangs open and I am not able to believe what I heard.

"Rob...are you.." I trail off.
I actually don't know what to say.

"He was a bastard! He was clearly using her." He says in pain. He looks stressful and I don't want anything bad to happen so I try to change the topic.
Though I want to hear to the whole story, I am deadly curious...but for his sake, let's not go there.