medicate || jj maybank (1)

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JJ and Willow were sitting in Peterkin's office, listening to telephones ringing and the clock on her wall. Willow was bouncing her leg up and down, while JJ was leaned back in the chair with his hands placed firmly against the back of his head. She was obviously more nervous than he was, or at least it came off that way since he was better at hiding it. JJ had been in these situations all the time, but this was the first for the girl. She began tapping her fingers against the desk, leg bouncing even quicker. Her breathing was ragged and he slowly turned his head to look at her, making him sigh.

"You being anxious is gonna make them think you were part of it.", He whispered, watching her shake her head after she scoffed.

"Too late, they already think that.", She shot him a glare, eyes softening once he looked down. "Look, either way I was gonna be sitting in here regardless of whether you took the fall for Pope or not."

"You should've put up more of a fight.", He answered her with anger laced in his tone. "You would not be here if you weren't quiet."

"My mother testified against me and there was a witness, you heard Shoupe.", She turned her body in the chair, facing him as he sat up straight in his own.

"Willow, just shut up.", He placed his hands on top of his head, running his fingers through his hair.

"I fucking knew this was a bad idea, but you encouraged it.", She turned away from him again, crossing her arms over her chest. "Pope wouldn't have done it if it wasn't for-"

"Me.", He cut her off, glaring at her once more. "Yeah, I get that. I influenced you to pull a gun on Kelce, I influenced Pope to do what he did. We've already come across this, Willow. I'm a huge fuck up, we all know it. Fuck!"

He stood up from his chair, making her sigh. "JJ..."

"You know, I get saying shit when you're angry. You've always done that.", He turned to look at her, shaking his head. "But I'm the only one you target. You don't think I know that I've already screwed up my life? I mean... my life was fucked the day I was born. If I could choose to go back in time and make sure I wasn't brought here, I fucking would."

"JJ, sit down.", She motioned for him to, but he closed his eyes harshly. He rubbed his face, making her heart ache at the sight of him trying not to cry. "JJ..."

"Maybe we really are like our parents, no?", He sniffled, biting the inside of his lip to force back a sob. "It's like Shoupe said... we're just this generations' Luke and Amelia."

"He's wrong.", She shook her head, eyeing him down. "You know he's wrong, you're just upset."

"You should've just stayed away.", He finally sat down, not looking her way once. "Amelia is the reason for my mom leaving and John B's mom leaving. That made Luke go insane and it left both of us without a mom."

"What she did is not my fault.", She furrowed her eyebrows, staring at him closely.

"No, but-", JJ turned to look at her, being cut off by her.